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If you haven’t read this article, you’re missing out on something truly incredible (a big thank you goes out to Wil Wheaton for always sharing such great articles he finds with his readers).  I don’t know the person who wrote it, but I can definitely relate to her.  I understand where she’s coming from, and what she’s written gives me hope.

I’ve been miserable before.  I’ve gone through life feeling hopeless and sad and bored and empty, like nothing.  Heck, I feel empty almost every day lately.  It sucks.

When I was in middle and high school (ask any of my friends) I obsessed over things I was passionate about.  I found something that made me happy, and I focused on it.  I put energy into it.  In 7th grade it was The Beatles.  In 8th it was Star Wars.  In 9th and 10th it was drama club (and drama club boys, but we won’t get into that right now).  And I was happy.  I was a lot happier than I have been in recent years, and I’ve wondered several times if it had something to do with the lack of an object or topic to obsess over.  In other words: a passion.

I asked myself: What have I been passionate about in the last 10 years? Has there been any one thing I’ve been passionate about that lasted more than a couple months?  And why is that?  Is it because I get bored and lose interest?  Is it because I find something, and I love it so hard, but people patronize me about it?  Like how much I love Harry Potter?  So many people were telling me I’m too old for it, making fun of me over how excited I got (still get) over it.  So maybe I say things like “Expecto Patronum!” in my head with a terrible English accent, and yeah, maybe I did cry when characters died.  So what?  Yes, I listen to Wizard Rock and I fantasize about going to Wrockstock and meeting people that have some of the same interests as me, and I join Harry Potter forums and websites.  What’s it to you?  Why do you have to make fun of me about it?

I think I went off on a tangent there… but moving on….  It’s likely both of those reasons and more.

I can’t think of anything I put energy into anymore.  I don’t even put much energy into blogging (don’t even get me started on how many people in my real life give me shit for blogging as if anyone cared what I had to say).  I don’t have any passions right now.  I feel like I’m just waiting for something to come along, I feel like I have all this passion and all this love and attention to give to something.  I just need to find what it is.

I may not be happy 365 days a year, but I’m on my way to being happy with my life as a whole and reading what the author of that post had to say really put some things into perspective for me.  I’m slowly learning to be proactive, to take charge of my own happiness.  I’ve been working on it for a while, because if I can’t make myself happy nobody can.  But it’s hard because while I can’t rely on others to make me happy, they definitely have the power to put me down.

I want to know what you think.  Read that article.
Can you relate?
Do you have any words of wisdom to add?
Are you passionate about anything?

I’m wicked tired, so I hope this made sense.

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I LOVE…  watching TV.  When I’m at my dad’s house I don’t even mind the commercials because there’s almost always something good on (read: CSI).  On Hulu a lot of the good shows are coming back on, like Secret Life of the American Teenager, House, Heroes, Grey’s Anatomy, Mercy and Castle.  Lost comes back on in a couple weeks, and I’m pretty sure Greek does too.  Watching TV is distracting, and I like distracting.  I’m even addicted to The Bachelor this season, which I haven’t watched in years, because I was in need of something to do to fill my time.

I LOVE…  listening to Wil Wheaton’s podcast, Radio Free Burrito.  He is very animated and funny.  And geeky.  ♥

I LOVE…  sleeping.  Hours fly by when I’m sleeping and my mind is entertained, my nerves are as relaxed as they’ll ever be, my body is resting, and I wake up feeling refreshed most of the time.

I LOVE…  my new bedding.

I LOVE…  lots of things I can’t think of right now because I’m not in the mood.  The end.

What do YOU love today?
No, really.  I want to know.

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Mikey Pop seems to be Hell bent on the notion that the two of us, with our powers combined, could out-geek Wil Wheaton.

there are no words

I’m not too sure about that.

In fact, I’m 100% positive I’m not sure at all about it.

I like to think that Wil Wheaton (@wilw) is the king of all nerds.  Supreme Nerd Ruler of Nerdom, if you wil (<- lolz for me!  Do you see what I just did there?  ^^).

While I’m proud to take nerditude to a whole new level as a female (do I get points for that?), and I can admit that I have extensive knowledge of all things Star Wars, Star Trek, Lord of the Rings, and really bad 80’s movies most people wouldn’t watch if you paid them, I don’t think I’ve got it in me to out-geek the nerdtastic Supreme Nerd Ruler of Nerdom.

With anyone’s help.

Not that I wouldn’t enjoy trying.  Like I said to Mike the other day, it would probably be the greatest day of my life, the day I spend trying to out-geek @wilw.  But I have faith in the leader of my people.

What, you don’t want to read me anymore?  You know how to unsubscribe.  :D

Also, is that not the greatest picture of all time?

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So… I finished reading Breaking Dawn this week and I am happy to report that I’m quite satisfied with the way it ended.  Just like everyone predicted I ended up liking Jacob a lot more in this book (but I’m still 100% Team Edward).  I also noticed that Edward was a LOT less creepy.  Out of all 4 books, Twilight is definitely my favorite.

Now I’ve gotta see if I can get my little brother to let me borrow his Harry Potter books.  Wish me luck!

Alli came over yesterday, for the first time since I moved in here.

It was good to finally hang out with her, even if it was only for like an hour.  And John was so happy to see her, he loves his Auntie Alli.  She really seemed happy, a lot happier than I’ve seen her in a few years, so I’m proud of her and happy for her.  She really needs to be happy.  But more than anything she seems to really be getting the hang of adult life.  Yay Alli!

In other news, last night Lauren and I went out walking.  Yay for having a walking buddy!  It was only 43 degrees out, but I totally couldn’t even feel it once we got downtown.  And when I got home I felt physically and emotionally awesome.  :D  I went to bed early (9:30) and listened to my iPod for about half an hour.  I have all these podcasts that I download regularly but have never listened to so I listened to one last night.  My choice: The Night Air.  It’s one of the ones Wil Wheaton posted about in his Podcasts I Love series, I downloaded them to check them out and then never got around to it.  You all know how much I love Wil Wheaton, don’t you?  *grin*

So all in all it’s been a pretty good week so far.  You know, besides the pain in my ear, jaw, and throat.  How’s your week going?  It’s almost Friday!  What are your plans for the weekend?

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Of course my reasons vary from residual 80’s fangirlness to, well, residual 80’s fangirlness.

I keed, I keed.

But seriously?  What keeps me following him on Twitter and reading his blogs is nothing more than his writing.  He is an incredible writer.  (That’s probably my understatement of the month.)

I love that his personality doesn’t overwhelm his writing talent, and also that his talent for writing doesn’t overwhelm his personality.  That’s not to say that his personality is questionable or his writing style is poor, but just the opposite.  The two work perfectly together to form unparalleled, geekified works of art.

I don’t think of him as a celebrity or as a child star.  I think of him as a writer.

I’m a reader.  I admire good writing.  And Wil Wheaton?  He has a fantastic way of telling you a story.  ANY story.  His random 140 character max Tweets are entertaining but if all you do is follow him on Twitter, you’re missing out.  If you’re not even doing that much, I disown you.

OK, I don’t really disown you.  But you should at least pick up one (or all three…) of his books.  He’s an entertainer and one way or another he does a great job of it.

Another reason, however small, is that he inspires me to think and to write.  Reading his blogs makes me a little less afraid of the world and life in general.

And that’s that.

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I got tagged by Insomniac Lolita to post 25 things about myself.

The RULES:  once you are tagged you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about yourself.  Then tag 25 people, including the person that tagged you.

Here goes nothing!

• 1.  I still sleep with my teddy bear.  Stuffy has been my faithful bed companion for the last 25 years (he never wets the bed or gets crumbs on the sheets).

My Sleepytime Partner

• 2.  I have no idea what I’m going to put down for more than half of these 25 things.  O.O
• 3.  I clip my fingernails every three days, because I can’t stand any whites on the tips and they always flake.
• 4.  When I was very small I had a hernia, and I still have the scar behind my underwear band.
• 5.  I like to look at myself whenever I pass a window or a mirror or anything that casts my reflection.
• 6.  My right leg is drastically longer than my left leg, but you wouldn’t know it because my right hip is drastically higher than my left.
• 7.  I read Wil Wheaton’s blog posts religiously and I follow him on Twitter like a good little stalker girl.

Wil's hilarious clown sweater

• 8.  It’s been years and I still think Leeroy Jenkins is just as hilarious (if not more so) than the first time I heard it.

• 9.  I HATE WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH THEIR TEETH WITH THEIR FINGERS.  It creeps me out, and I can’t explain why.  I go into a fit of rage, it’s not pretty.
• 10.  My favorite song changes all the time, whenever I say “OMG this is my new favorite song!” my dad ALWAYS replies with “Jaime, EVERY song is your favorite” and laughs at me.
• 11.  I don’t know if I want children.  Sometimes I think I do, but I think it’s too early to tell.  I’m still trying to convince myself that I don’t have to fit my entire life in by the time I’m 30.
• 12.  Someday when I have my own own place (i.e. when I’m not living with Sarah) I will take two showers a day if I want to.  Or a shower and a bath.  Whichever I want to on any given day!
• 13.  It has taken me MONTHS to knit one scarf for Sean, and I’m not even done yet.  I am so slow.
• 14.  I went to see New Kids on the Block in concert last year and it was the most awesome time I’ve ever had in my life.
• 15.  I don’t like to drink for two reasons:  A) I’m afraid I’ll end up like my mother, and 2) it only takes one.
• 16.  I like to toot my own horn about my awesome talents, but only to myself.
• 17.  Despite that I love to toot my own horn, I don’t have a lot of faith in myself when it comes to anything, except winning an argument.
• 18.  My favorite color is green, except for when it’s pink.  It depends on how I’m feeling each day.
• 19.  In my family we refer to any remote control as a ‘phazer’, as in the hand held weapon from Star Trek.  I didn’t think this was odd or different until I was about 13, I thought that’s what everyone called it.

Set your weapons to stun!

• 20.  I owe the dentist office over $1000 in dental bills.
• 21.  I think I’m pretty blah, mostly boring, and that I have no personality.  I fear going out in groups of people because then it will  be known how dreadfully boring and un-entertaining I am.
• 22.  I’ve only ever successfully beaten three video games in my life (Super Mario Bros, Kingdom Hearts, and Baldur’s Gate).  Instead, I get to a certain point and then start over because I’m afraid that if I beat the game it will lose all it’s luster and I’ll never want to play it again.
• 23.  My daddy is my hero.  <3

The Padu

• 24.  I’m obsessed with British history, namely the court of Henry VIII, his six wives, and his three children.
• 25.  My ultimate goal in life is simply happiness in it’s many forms.  I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I do know that I want to be myself, and that I want to be happy.

Now, I’m not tagging anyone so I’m already breaking the rules lol.  But if anyone wants to play, just post 25 things about you in your blog or in the comments here.

Also: have a wonderful Monday.

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