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It’s Monday again, the start of a new week, and this week actually feels different.  All my days and weeks have felt the same for months now (what with me being unemployed and all) but I know that change is coming and it feels like a good change.  It’s a change I’m ready for.

This Friday I’m making my ‘temporary’ move to Mississippi.  I’ll be living down there for about a month and a half before Walter and I fly back up to Rhode Island to move all my stuff down (read: the actual move).  That will take place sometime in the beginning to middle of May.  Before my birthday, which is in 69 days.

My wedding reception will be *fingers crossed* May 9th.  I realized afterward that that particular Sunday is Mother’s Day, but it’s really the only weekend I can have it.  I think.

I did a lot of shopping at the mall on Saturday, and by a lot of shopping I obviously mean that I bought underwear.  Because it’s been too long since I bought underwear.  I should have looked into buying new sneakers, but I didn’t think of it.  Blast!  I suppose Walter can always take me shopping for new sneakers.  *shrug*  Yesterday I had breakfast with Jean and we went to Walmart and I bought stuff I’d need for the move.  Because I like to come prepared, like a good Girl Scout.  My old troop leaders would be so proud.  I just have a few more things to pick up before I pack my bag, like a pillow and some sunflower seeds.

In other news I’ve been watching Stargate SG1 because all 10 seasons are online.  I swear, I half expect Colonel O’Neill to spit out a piece of gum and pull a toothpick and rubber band out of his back pocket to fix whatever problem they’re encountering.  He obviously doesn’t do that, but it’s still awesome.  I <3 Richard Dean Anderson.  It’s almost hard to believe that they came up with enough material for MacGyver to last 7 seasons… but then I remember that he’s MacGyver.  He can do anything.  DUH!!!

Speaking of MacGyver, I’ma watch some more Stargate now…

How was your weekend????

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I LOVE…  feeling genuinely happy.  Lately I’ve been feeling down, often times like there is nothing to look forward to and I’ll never smile again.  Which is a lame feeling.  Today I feel happy.  I’d like to keep this up, please.

I LOVE…  that this week Christina uncovered Bible Fanfiction.  BIBLE FANFICTION.  Do you understand what that means?

I LOVE…  finally wearing pants that fit me.  I put it off for far too long, not wanting to acknowledge that I’d never fit into my size 3’s again.  I guess this means I’ve accepted that I’ll never be the size of a 16 year old as long as I live.  And that’s good… right?

I LOVE…  that there are only 86 more days until my birthday.  ♥

I LOVE…  Pampered Chef!!!!  Lauren had a Pampered Chef party last night and I filled out an order form for some wicked awesome kitchenware goodies that I can’t wait to use!  Like the egg slicer.  And the food chopper.  And the green color coated knives.  (( Can you NOM cooking utensils?  Because I want to…. ))

I LOVE…  the Twilight Saga.  I finished reading Breaking Dawn (for the second time) last night and it was even better than the first time I read it.  Is it sick that I already want to read them again?  Right now?  I won’t.  I’ll wait at least until Breaking Dawn comes out in paperback and I can own it.  I’ll wait.  But I don’t want to.

I LOVE…  owning books.  I dislike borrowing books more than I dislike lending them out.  (( shudder ))  That’s a lot.  I like to own them and know they are mine.  What if I want to read it again?  (( No, I don’t have a library card – in case you were wondering.  I haven’t had one since I was 10 years old. ))

I LOVE…  GLEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Just got this today from my dad.

That’s right.  Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman!  THE COMPLETE SERIES.  And the movie is in there too.  *grin*

I have the greatest dad in the world.

Now, if only my TV would work…..

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Someday when I am grown up and I have my own house I am going to buy a refrigerator sized freezer, and in it I will keep a titanic supply of Rocky Road ice cream and Nutty Buddies.  And they will all be for me.

I could really go for a Nutty Buddy right now.  Ice cream for breakfast is my favorite.

(After chocolate milk, of course.  And cereal.)

Why hasn’t there been a new Superman movie out yet?  I thought Brandon Routh signed a three movie deal.  I want more Superman movies.

I woke up today in a quiet, introspective kind of mood.  I feel like I want to keep to myself, have little contact with other people, and spend all my time thinking about the things that make me feel good.  I look forward to going to work, but only to sit in MY cubicle, MY space, with MY things, and be quiet and content with my thoughts.

I miss Walter. That’s the thought that’s dominating my day brain today, taking up most of the space in my conscious (and probably subconscious) mind.

I’m not allowed to be friends with someone anymore that’s been my friend for 11 years.  I understand why, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.  Not that that friend would ever read my blog, but I want him to know that even though we’re not allowed to interact I will always be here for him if he needs anything.  His family is always going to be my family.  We may not talk for 20 years, but if 20 years from now he needs anything, I hope he knows he can call on me and I’ll do whatever is in my power to be there for him.  I understand, but I don’t like it.

I started drawing something two weekends ago, and I haven’t touched it since.  I’m lost as to what to do with it anymore.  I wanted it to be a full page drawing.  Maybe I’ll work on it some more next weekend.  Maybe.

The weekend was pretty OK.  My birthday wasn’t the best ever but that’s alright.  They can’t ALL be fabulous all the time, right?  I spent all of Saturday and most of Sunday being lazy.  Did 4 loads of laundry, watched Castle and Lie To Me, and went to the movies alone.  Talked to Walter twice on Saturday.  Went to dinner at 7 Moons (finally) with Erik and Mike, and I brought home a ton of leftovers.

Speaking of which, I hope I don’t forget to bring the leftovers to work with me today.  I have Mike’s in the fridge, and he’ll need that.

Mike and I have been talking about going to 7 Moons for two years now.  o.0  Hooray for finally going!

364 days until my birthday.

Ghosts Of Girlfriends Past is a crappy movie.  Don’t see it in theaters.  I wouldn’t even suggest you see it when it comes out on DVD, it really was that lame.  It’s probably the worst movie I’ve seen since I saw Good Luck Chuck, which was a bad movie.

Christina and I are going to the mall next weekend.  I need to do some heavy duty book shopping.  I’ll probably start reading the Harry Potter books next week and I’m sure I’ll breeze right through them.

Once I get my TV fixed I think I’m going to sign up for Netflix.  Maybe.  It’s a thought.

I miss Walter. I think I’m going to spend some money and go see him again for three days before he leaves for Iraq in June.  They’re sending him home for 4 or 5 days before he ships out.  If I thought 8 days was not enough last month then 3 days is definitely not going to be enough this time, but I think of it this way: I’ll take what I can get to hold me over until he comes home.  I’m still thinking about it though.  Leaving last time was really hard.

I’m giving my NKOTB tickets to CooCoo.  I can’t go anymore.  My little brother’s graduation is the same night, and while I love my New Kids On The Block (wicked hard) I really can’t miss Robert’s graduation.  Family comes first.  In 13 days he’ll be 18 years old.  A month from today he’s going to be graduating high school.  And this fall he’s going to start going to college.  He may be like 5′10” or something ridiculous like that, but he’ll always be my baby brother.

I don’t feel hungry at all.  Is that a bad thing?  I haven’t eaten in 14 hours, shouldn’t I be even a little bit hungry by now?  I’m going to eat when I get to work whether I’m hungry or not, because that’s what I do.  I eat to pass the time.  And to fend off boredom.

Today is definitely going to be a Write In My Journal day.

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I LOVE… that Mike is home from WA for the rest of the month.
I LOVE… Seven Moons (om nom nom).  Going there this weekend with Mike and Erik to celebrate my birthday.
I LOVE… MY BIRTHDAY!  It’s in two days!!!!!

I LOVE… watching Grey’s Anatomy and Lost with my sister at the computer.  Less commercials and more fun.  Can’t wait for tonight so we can watch them both!
I LOVE… doing laundry.  I know.  I’m a freak.  Whatev.  I love doing laundry.
I LOVE… the weird pictures I take and the fact that I’m proud of the most ridiculous things.

I LOVE… this program I downloaded called Poladroid (thanks @Daniel_Gardner for the tip!) because it makes said pictures look awesomer.  Plus it has the word ‘droid’ in the name.  So effing cool.

I LOVE… blogging and all of my blogging friends.  I seriously love logging in every day and reading everyone’s blogs.  It’s kind of like spending time with 40-50 different people every day all over the world.  It feels great!
I LOVE… listening to KLOVE on the way into work every day.  Some of the stories people call in with are so uplifting that it makes me happy other people believe so strongly in something.

I LOVE… Sebastian’s blogs.  He’s seriously so funny and so geeky that it’s awesome.  I look forward to his blogs every day, and whenever he doesn’t post I get sad.  Also he takes amazing pictures.
I LOVE… chocolate milk first thing in the morning.  It’s the most delicious breakfast ever!
I LOVE… every other weekend when I’m home alone.  Even though I love spending time with Sarah and John, when I’m home alone I can be as bizarre and silly as I want.

How’s that mental image for ya?!  lolz @ you!

I LOVE… ridiculous Pick 5’s on Facebook that take up a huge chunk of my day.  So what if it has no effect on real life?  I don’t care!  It’s fun while I’m doing it!
I LOVE… that I’m in love, that I let myself be in love with my best friend in the entire universe.  Nothing in the world has ever felt so right.  Nothing is holding me back anymore.  I’m so in love it makes me stupid.  I’m stupid for Walter.

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FIVE DAYS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Please be sure to stop by Arielle’s blog today, More Than A Mermaid, for my guest post in which I reveal a deep, dark, nerdy secret.

Epic Nerdery, Revealed!

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Last time we checked in with our heroine, Anxiety Girl, the dread Poison Ivy had spread to her leg and back.

It seems, in the last few days, that the skirmishes have spread, leaving more battlefields than was previously expected.  Poison Ivy has taken up residence on her left side as well as her upper right arm and on the inside of her right thigh (a little too close to The Promised Land for her liking).  See the illustration below to get the full extent of how far it’s dared to spread.

The red dot masses (I know, I am brilliant!) show where Poison Ivy is located on her front and sides, where as the blue dot mass shows Poison Ivy’s dirty position on her back.

This new Anti-Poison Ivy Soap better be worth what her mother paid for it.

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So, happy Tuesday everyone!  Now get on over to Arielle’s page and read my guest blog over there!  You know you wanna!  :D

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It’s Monday morning and I’m back home from my vacation in Mississippi (I actually got home Friday afternoon).  I had the most amazing time with Walter and his family and it was the greatest vacation in the history of Ever.  I’m happy to be home in RI again, sleeping in my bed with Stuffy, sitting at my computer, with my nephew coming into my room every five minutes to ‘deliver my mail’ or ‘give me breakfast’.  I’m also sad because I had to leave some people that I love, but I have all these wonderful new memories of happy times to carry around with me.  And now I have to get things back to normal.

Except normal doesn’t feel… normal anymore.  I’ve got to make a new normal for myself and that takes time.  You know how it goes when things change, you have to adapt your idea of normal to suit the changes.  And things have changed.  The most exciting change is that Walter and I are a couple now.  I refuse to call him my ‘boyfriend’.  I feel that word should be reserved for grade school and the elderly.  Besides, he’s more than just my boyfriend, the same way that he’s always been more than just my best friend.  Anyway, that’s all I’m going to say about that for now.  Another change is that in about a month he’s going to be practically unreachable.  That one is going to be hard because I’m used to being able to call or text him whenever I need to.  I’ll admit that while the idea of writing letters to him while he’s away is romantically appealing, it’s also nerve wracking knowing that he’ll be in a far away land with no phone and no computer for instant communication.  *le sigh* I think I’ve taken that for granted in the last few years, that I could get a hold of him whenever I wanted to.

Normal.  Let’s see… things are the same at home as they were when I left, but I feel disconnected because I was gone for almost two weeks.  It will feel good to be back at work in a few hours.  I miss my coworkers and my cubicle.  I miss the actual act of going in to work in the afternoons.  It felt nice to get away, but I’m relieved to go back, too.  That’s a good thing, I think.  Mike will be out for a little over a week *groan*, getting home the day before his birthday, so some things (like work) won’t actually be normal-normal until he gets back.  You know, so he can leave again after our birthdays and be gone until August.  *eye roll*

Anyways, I missed blogging.  Blogging is definitely normal to me.

Photoblog coming tomorrow with pictures from my vacation.

PS  -  My birthday is in 13 days!!!

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I LOVE… that I’m finally going to meet Frank next week.
I LOVE… that it’s going to be in the 70’s this weekend!!!
I LOVE… going dress shopping with Alli.  It is the funnest!
I LOVE… Sour Patch Kids watermelon slices (they make my tongue bleed < regular Sour Patch Kids).
I LOVE… all the music on my iPod.  \m/
I LOVE… my matching backpack and duffel bag.  They’re LL Bean and have my initials on them.  :D
I LOVE… the new bathing suit I got for my vacation.
I LOVE… Monty Python’s The Final Ripoff album.  I’ve had it for years but I can’t remember where I put it, and I need to put it into my iTunes library.  Grr!!!
I LOVE… getting my hair cut.  It feels so damn good.

I LOVE… how freaking pale I am.  I considered going tanning before my vacation, but I don’t need to.
I LOVE… chocolate ice cream.  Vanilla ice cream.  Rocky road ice cream.  Ice cream.
I LOVE… that there are only 30 days until my birthday!!!
I LOVE… NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK.  I’m going to see them with CooCoo again in July at Mohegan Sun!!!
I LOVE… how much fun we all had going to see Thomas & Friends at the Ryan Center this week.
I LOVE… that my dad always drops me off and picks me up at the airport.  It’s tradition.
I LOVE… Arrested Development.  It’s so good.

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I LOVE… Kellogg’s Raisin Bran
I LOVE… bottled water.
I LOVE… sleeping in on Friday mornings.
I LOVE… BlogTV.com
I LOVE… getting/sending Twitter updates via text message.
I LOVE… Edward Cullen.
I LOVE… vanilla coconut room spray.
I LOVE… leftover Halloween and Christmas candy.
I LOVE… having a webcam so that Walter and I can video chat when he’s at home.
I LOVE… Caramel Delights flavored ice cream.  *drool*
I LOVE… wearing shorts to bed.
I LOVE… that there are only 44 more days left until my birthday!!!!

I LOVE… this picture:

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I LOVE… that there are only 58 days until my birthday!  SHA!
I LOVE… Michael Buckley.

I LOVE… the 5awesomebuckfans on YouTube.
I LOVE… recycled reading (read: reading a book I’ve already read before and absolutely loved).
I LOVE… the drawing I made last night.  I’m going to cut and frame and hang it someday.
I LOVE… that Mike is coming home from California today.  YIPPEE!!!

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