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If you haven’t read this article, you’re missing out on something truly incredible (a big thank you goes out to Wil Wheaton for always sharing such great articles he finds with his readers).  I don’t know the person who wrote it, but I can definitely relate to her.  I understand where she’s coming from, and what she’s written gives me hope.

I’ve been miserable before.  I’ve gone through life feeling hopeless and sad and bored and empty, like nothing.  Heck, I feel empty almost every day lately.  It sucks.

When I was in middle and high school (ask any of my friends) I obsessed over things I was passionate about.  I found something that made me happy, and I focused on it.  I put energy into it.  In 7th grade it was The Beatles.  In 8th it was Star Wars.  In 9th and 10th it was drama club (and drama club boys, but we won’t get into that right now).  And I was happy.  I was a lot happier than I have been in recent years, and I’ve wondered several times if it had something to do with the lack of an object or topic to obsess over.  In other words: a passion.

I asked myself: What have I been passionate about in the last 10 years? Has there been any one thing I’ve been passionate about that lasted more than a couple months?  And why is that?  Is it because I get bored and lose interest?  Is it because I find something, and I love it so hard, but people patronize me about it?  Like how much I love Harry Potter?  So many people were telling me I’m too old for it, making fun of me over how excited I got (still get) over it.  So maybe I say things like “Expecto Patronum!” in my head with a terrible English accent, and yeah, maybe I did cry when characters died.  So what?  Yes, I listen to Wizard Rock and I fantasize about going to Wrockstock and meeting people that have some of the same interests as me, and I join Harry Potter forums and websites.  What’s it to you?  Why do you have to make fun of me about it?

I think I went off on a tangent there… but moving on….  It’s likely both of those reasons and more.

I can’t think of anything I put energy into anymore.  I don’t even put much energy into blogging (don’t even get me started on how many people in my real life give me shit for blogging as if anyone cared what I had to say).  I don’t have any passions right now.  I feel like I’m just waiting for something to come along, I feel like I have all this passion and all this love and attention to give to something.  I just need to find what it is.

I may not be happy 365 days a year, but I’m on my way to being happy with my life as a whole and reading what the author of that post had to say really put some things into perspective for me.  I’m slowly learning to be proactive, to take charge of my own happiness.  I’ve been working on it for a while, because if I can’t make myself happy nobody can.  But it’s hard because while I can’t rely on others to make me happy, they definitely have the power to put me down.

I want to know what you think.  Read that article.
Can you relate?
Do you have any words of wisdom to add?
Are you passionate about anything?

I’m wicked tired, so I hope this made sense.

“I gulped down my gillyweed jumped into the lake
Not knowing who the masters of the tournament would take
I dodged the merpeople and the grindylow
And saw three pretty girls there floating in a row
But it was freaking Ron Weasley who was waiting for me
She was the prize for Cedric Diggory”
- Dead Boy’s Girlfriend, Hank Green

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So I’ve kind of not been around.  I didn’t intended on not blogging, but I’ve been kind of busy with other things over the last few days.  I started re-watching Lost from the beginning, but then I lost interest three episodes in because I don’t care how it all started anymore, I just want to see how it ends.  I love that show, but it has been a LONG six years.

I went to see Youth In Revolt, and it rocked.  Michael Cera made me laugh, and everyone in the movie was good.  I really want to read the book now, though.  I know what I’m spending my Barnes & Noble gift card on (you know, some time in the next century when I actually get to a B&N).

I need a new background for my blog.  I want to design something myself, but I’m uber lazy and interested in other things.  I’m playing FlyFF again, which is more fun when you actually have someone to play with (maybe I can convince Sarah to play with me) but it’s still fun.  I got so wrapped up in WoW (which I’ve cancelled my subscription for because I’m jobless and have no income) that I forgot how fun FlyFF can be.

It’s a free game, but I actually spent quite a bit of money on it in the past on getting stuff from the cash shop, so my char is wicked cute.

The excitement of Google Wave has kind of died, and that makes me sad.  I’m still excited to have it, but it seems like no one else is interested in using it anymore.  I’m hoping that will change when more people have it.

Got my hair cut this week.  New hair cut = old hair cut + bangs.

I feel so uninteresting at the moment, but I wanted to let you all know that I’m still here even though it’s been (an uncharacteristically long) four days.  Tomorrow will bring the usual ILF blog, and on Monday I’ll have a super awesome blog about my super awesome weekend at MC’s house watching all the Harry Potter movies (because I know you all care so deeply about my HP obsession).

What have you done this week?

I LOVE…  that I get to start off the new year with an I LOVE…Fridays post.  WINKITTY.

I LOVE…  that I spent last night out with my awesome friends.  Got some really awesome video of these two drunk old guys singing You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feeling by the Righteous Brothers.

I LOVE…  that it is less than three months until I see Walter again.  Less. than. three.  <3

I LOVE…  that there is a new poll in the sidebar of my blog.  And I want you all to vote in it.  Then tell me in the comments what house you voted me for and why.

<–  Right here.

For any of you that aren’t versed in the Harry Potter universe, descriptions of the houses can be found here.  Participation is mandatory.  OK, it’s not really, but it should be.

I LOVE…  the new book I bought this week.  I can’t wait to read it!

I LOVE…  that I beat Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince on my DS already (yes, that is an accomplishment).  Go me!

I LOVE…  that I actually bought Adobe Premiere Elements, and it will be arriving in the mail next week.  I’ll finally be able to upload videos to YouTube that I make with my awesome new video camera.

I LOVE…  Cat Face.  If people heard me walking around my house or whatever, singing the Cat Face theme song, they would think I was nuts because of the awesome lyrics and my very poor imitation of the voice.  Believe me when I say that it is very poor.

What do YOU love today?

I actually feel rather miserable right now and would appreciate any attempts at cheering up.
Also don’t forget to vote in my poll.

When I admit to you in passing that I love Harry Potter, I don’t mean it in that ‘I’ll watch it if it’s on’ or ‘I read the books and thought they were terrific’ kind of way.  I’m serious that I Love.Harry.Potter.  I might just say it in passing, but inside I’m all excited just at the mention of it.  My mind goes into HP overdrive and I try to discern if you love Harry Potter or if you just like it.

I’m most likely wondering silently what house you would be in (LET’S GO GRYFFINDOR!)…

…if you’ve decided what kind of wand you would have if you went to Hogwarts, what your Patronus would be…

I randomly slip into the conversation (any conversation) that I listen to Wizard Rock, that’s Harry Potter music, and from your expression I will glean whether or not your are repulsed by my slightly obsessive behavior (usually people think I’m nuts, but don’t say it out loud and I can totally tell by their facial expression after I admit this little gem).  Of COURSE I listen to Wizard Rock (thank you Pham!), because it rocks.  Literally.   Ministry Of Magic?  The Parselmouths?  HECK YES!

I wanna be in a Wizard Rock band!  I can sing!

I think about the wizarding world in relation to the real world all the time, comparing and contrasting, wondering What would be the secret use of this thing here? or How cool would it be if that guy over there that’s dressed all weird-like was really a wizard trying to blend in with the muggles?  At least he’d have an excuse for wearing that, if he didn’t know any better.

I want Gryffindor robes… really good quality ones, not cheap Halloween costume material.

I cast spells at people and things inside my head.  Stupefy!  Riddikulus!  Expecto Patronum (just for funsies)!  (Accio would be wicked useful for getting the phaser when I didn’t want to get up to change the channel!)

Yesterday I wrapped the last four HP books and labeled them To: Jaime, From: Santa to put under the tree.  Boy, Santa really does know what I like!  And you know what?  I’m going to be excited when I open them!  That means I can read them again!  I bought them on Black Friday and hid them from myself so I could give them to myself on Christmas.  With my GPS.

I would talk about Harry Potter with a complete stranger if one walked up to me on the street.  Wanna know how to kidnap me without having to use force?  Ask me questions about Harry Potter and seem genuinely interested.  I’ll probably go anywhere with you just to have someone to talk about HP with.

(And just in case you’re wondering… my husband thinks he knows how weird I am weird and married me anyway.  Joke is on him!)

No Wordless Wednesday today.  Not that I’m feeling particularly chatty, I just don’t feel all that picture-y either.

Except for this picture of me, from this morning.

I’m sad that I didn’t see Harry Potter at the midnight showing, but I’m seeing it this weekend with my sisters and possibly my dad, so that should make up for it.  But still.  I feel like the world has something I don’t, at least until I see it.

I finished reading The Reader yesterday.  It was better than good.  It left me feeling sad, but not the depressed kind of sad, more like melancholic or bittersweet.  Yeah, bittersweet.  It is a beautifully tragic story and I fell in love with it.  I really do recommend it to everyone.

I feel like I just have to write this morning, even though I’ve not got much to say.  Like by the simple act of pushing things out there I’m still doing something somewhat productive.

I hate when I’m watching TV online and there are like twice as many commercial breaks as on regular TV, except they’re only 10-59 seconds long, so they may be short but they come in the middle of sentences and scenes not meant to have been interrupted.  It irritates me.

I just started watching Dead Like Me.  Anyone seen that show?  I’ve only so far watched the first episode, but I like it.  I was looking for something to watch now that I’m done with Legend Of The Seeker (which disgusted me, by the way).  They have both seasons of DLM up on Hulu so I figured I’d give it a shot.  It looks interesting enough.

It’s mid-week (I know, I am Captain Obvious).  I hope it’s a good day today, but it’s far too early to tell just yet.  I’m going to have some chocolate milk and then probably go lay down in bed for a while.  Or play Farm Town.  I haven’t decided yet.

HA HA HA!  I so funny to myself.

So yeah.  This morning has been hectic.  Not that Mondays are usually relaxing, of course.  It was just unexpectedly hectic.

I had my nephew this morning because Sarah’s grandmother couldn’t watch him today, and she forgot so I didn’t know, so she came back to the house with him to drop him off with me (and my lazy butt was still in bed but it was only 8:25 so it was still early), she was probably most likely late for work, and then she had to leave work at 11:30 because I had to go to work.  AAH!

I spent most of the morning playing around on this blog design program.  For a while now I’ve been wanting to design my own blog theme, and I think I’ve found the perfect program for me!  So sometime soon my blog will have a whole new look and feel!  I’m not moving URLs or anything, I’m staying with the PQ Nation (it’s home to me :D), but it’ll be prettier and way more me.

My weekend was good.  On Saturday I went to lunch with my friend Crystal, whom I haven’t seen in years or hung out with since high school.  We totally talked for an hour and a half, and I didn’t even notice the time flying by!  But we’re going to hang out again soon, ’cause she so awesome!  On Sunday I got Walter’s address in Iraq (FINALLY!! HOORAY!!!!) and today I’ll be sending him his first set of letters along with some of my blogs printed up and his birthday present.  His birthday is next Tuesday, I hope it gets there on time.  But I’m not worried about it.  He’ll get it when he gets it, as long as he gets it!

Get it?

I don’t think I’m entirely “with it” this morning.  Can you tell?

Mark your calendars, ladies and gentleblokes: my birthday is in 307 days (♥ May 17 ♥)!

How was your weekend?
Did you do anything exciting?
ARE YOU EXCITED FOR HARRY POTTER ON WEDNESDAY?!!!!!

Can someone… um… explain please… what one of these things has to do with the other…?

Seriously?  Twilight and SATs?

Um… I make this face at you…

And have you seen the Twilight tattoo craze (crazy?)?

RIDDIKULUS! (<– that’s a Harry Potter play on words, I so funny to myself!)

No, srsly.  Click that link.  You won’t be disappointed.  Or you will be… in the human race….

WTF is wrong with people?!!!

At least it’s funny.

I miss Walter.

There has been a lot of comment spam sneaking it’s sneaky way through my spam filter lately.  I get all excited because I have 10 new comments instead of 3, only to find that the extra 7 are spam.  And it makes me sad.  Stupid spam.

I have a few new books, but I don’t really feel like reading them.  I’m too sad about not having any more Harry Potter books left.  I really love the Harry Potter universe and I’m kind of stuck there for the time being.  So while I do have books on my bookshelf that I haven’t read yet, I just don’t feel like reading anything new.  In fact, I might read The Deathly Hallows again, because it was that good and I want to make sure I didn’t miss anything.  You know, since I was dead tired when I forced myself to stay up until 3:30am to finish the book.

I don’t have any pictures to insert into this blog to make it pretty.

Aside from Dr. Quinn, I’ve been watching Legend Of The Seeker on Hulu.  Has anyone seen that show?  Has anyone read the book it’s based off of (Wizard’s First Rule by Terry Goodkind)?  It’s not a bad show, but it’s nothing like the book.  There’s too much extra stuff in the show that’s just WRONG.  If you’ve read the books and haven’t seen the show, I don’t recommend that you watch it.  Ever.  If you’ve never read the books but you’re looking for something to watch, go ahead.  It’s entertaining.

OK, so Mike just told me to blog about babies.  lolz.  I don’t know what to say about them except that I WANT ONE.  I love babies.  I want to get married and have babies.

And lastly, in this blog of random crap you’re being fed today, I need to announce that today I listened to something other than Wizard Rock for the first time in about a month.

PS  -  I love cheese.

My weekend activities consisted of the following:

• playing WoW
• finishing Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows
• watching Dr. Quinn with Sarah
• dinner at my mom’s
• eating ice cream (surprised?  :D)
• hanging out with Alli
• my nephew being sick

And you know what?  The sun came out today.  It’s out.  Google says SHOWERS ALL DAY! but the sky is saying something very different and I like it (not Google lying, the sun actually coming out).  It’s about 76°, sunny and humid and I’m loving it!

Even though it’s business casual at work today.

So yeah.  I played WoW for most of the day on Saturday.  I got from level 14 to level 20 (go me!).  Poor John was sick all day, feverish and throwing up.  Sarah couldn’t get her computer to connect to the Interwebz so she couldn’t play WoW for most of the day.  But she eventually figured it out.  And John was feeling much better by Sunday morning.

Sarah and I have been watching my Dr. Quinn DVDs, and as we watch I’m remembering parts of every episode.  It’s fun.  There are episodes in the later seasons that I haven’t seen, so I can’t wait to watch those either.

All-in-all I like how Harry Potter ended.  It was a marvelous ending to an incredible story.  I stayed up until 3:30 in the morning Saturday night to finish it, and I must say that I cried about Fred Weasley.  I actually cried twice reading the last book.  There was probably at least one point in each of the last three books that I cried.  I’m in love with the series.  Every book.  I’m sad it’s over, but it ended perfectly.  I can’t wait for Half-Blood Prince to come out in theatres.

And this morning I got to talk to Walter!  So I’m smiling.

How was your weekend?  I hope today starts your work week off in a good way (I’m so weird, I love Mondays)!

I LOVE…  that I got to talk to Walter for over an hour this morning.  OVER AN HOUR.  And it was beyond glorious.

I LOVE…  old school Michael Jackson.  Kids these days don’t understand.

I LOVE…  taking pictures.  One time I took this picture of a slug (I know, I’m weird) but it came out so good!!!!!

I LOVE…  living in Rhode Island.  Don’t judge me!

I LOVE…  all the Harry Potter books.  I’m half way through Deathly Hollows, and I can’t believe it’s so good!

I LOVE…  playing WoW.

I LOVE…  chocolate ice cream.  I could eat it every day!  Oh wait, I pretty much already do…  :D  He he he.

I LOVE…  the burn marks in my front bumper from my major jump start failure.  I’m so proud of them.

I LOVE…  hanging out with Sarah at the end of the day.  She’s so awesome.

I LOVE…  Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman.  And Sully.

I LOVE…  you.  For real.  I’m in such a good mood!!!!

What do you love today?!!!!