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“I gulped down my gillyweed jumped into the lake
Not knowing who the masters of the tournament would take
I dodged the merpeople and the grindylow
And saw three pretty girls there floating in a row
But it was freaking Ron Weasley who was waiting for me
She was the prize for Cedric Diggory”
- Dead Boy’s Girlfriend, Hank Green

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So I’ve kind of not been around.  I didn’t intended on not blogging, but I’ve been kind of busy with other things over the last few days.  I started re-watching Lost from the beginning, but then I lost interest three episodes in because I don’t care how it all started anymore, I just want to see how it ends.  I love that show, but it has been a LONG six years.

I went to see Youth In Revolt, and it rocked.  Michael Cera made me laugh, and everyone in the movie was good.  I really want to read the book now, though.  I know what I’m spending my Barnes & Noble gift card on (you know, some time in the next century when I actually get to a B&N).

I need a new background for my blog.  I want to design something myself, but I’m uber lazy and interested in other things.  I’m playing FlyFF again, which is more fun when you actually have someone to play with (maybe I can convince Sarah to play with me) but it’s still fun.  I got so wrapped up in WoW (which I’ve cancelled my subscription for because I’m jobless and have no income) that I forgot how fun FlyFF can be.

It’s a free game, but I actually spent quite a bit of money on it in the past on getting stuff from the cash shop, so my char is wicked cute.

The excitement of Google Wave has kind of died, and that makes me sad.  I’m still excited to have it, but it seems like no one else is interested in using it anymore.  I’m hoping that will change when more people have it.

Got my hair cut this week.  New hair cut = old hair cut + bangs.

I feel so uninteresting at the moment, but I wanted to let you all know that I’m still here even though it’s been (an uncharacteristically long) four days.  Tomorrow will bring the usual ILF blog, and on Monday I’ll have a super awesome blog about my super awesome weekend at MC’s house watching all the Harry Potter movies (because I know you all care so deeply about my HP obsession).

What have you done this week?

I’ve played quite a few games in my time.  Quite a few indeed.  So when I announced that I was going to start playing WoW, I was irritated at all the negative feedback I got.

I heard a lot of “We’re never going to see you again”s and some  “See you in a few months”s along with quite a few “We all know where THIS is going”s.  Equip each statement with a massive eye roll and there you have it: the reaction I got from just about everyone that doesn’t already play.

I ignored it, and laughed it off.  I’ve been a gamer since I met D in high school.  I’ve been hooked on MMORPG’s (for any of you non-gamers that stands for Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game) for a good five years now.  I’ve played Oddessy, Runescape, Diablo2, Meridian 59, UltimaOnline, EverQuest, Lineage, World Of Warcraft, Endless Online, Guild Wars, Vanguard, R.O.S.E. Online, Fly For Fun, Ragnarok, and probably a few others that I’m completely forgetting.  So I’ve been around the gaming world.  I know how it is.

I know.

I don’t need people rolling their eyes at me, telling me they’re disappointed in me and telling me how it’s going to be.

Um, if you know me then you know I’m not like that.  I’m a big girl, and not everyone falls into that stereotype.

Or better yet, if you’ve known me long enough, you should know I’ve been down that road and that I learned my lesson.  Because of all the games I’ve played, no game was more addicting or life consuming than Illarion (before you click the link, remember that it was far less developed 5 years ago than it is now).

This is Illarion.  You’ll want to click to see the full images.

Illarion is a free MMORPG.  An isometric free RPG where you can only walk at one pace and all the character avatars look exactly the same, no matter what they’re equipped with.

To say that I loved this game would be the understatement of the century.  I lived this game.  I used to eat, sleep, breathe, and BATHE this game.  It dictated when I slept, when I worked, when I ate (which was rarely), and everything else I did or (more likely) didn’t do.

Probably the longest period I went without having a boyfriend was while I was playing this game.

It’s not just an MMO, it’s actual role play.  To have and keep a character you need to, like D&D, come up with a personality and character description as well as a back story, and then you need your character to blend in with the world around you and interact with other characters.  With the old account system (there isn’t one now) you had to actually apply for an account and not only answer questions, but complete a story in a few sentences to play.

There was no questing.  Power gaming was frowned upon.  All the characters looked the same with our names (and numbers!) over our heads.  85% of your in game time was spent actually role playing, not gaining skills.

It. Was. AWESOME.

For a while.  Then it started to become unfun.  I had this whole life in game.  A husband and a profession, a whole LIFE.  And when it started to get unfun, it leaked into my real life.  My unhappiness spilled over into my everyday activities.  And even then I didn’t quit.  I took it too seriously to quit.  I took it so seriously for so long that I was afraid to leave, even though I was completely miserable.  I needed the game.  It kept me awake at night.  I played for a long time this way before I finally quit.  And I quit twice.

The first time I quit, I went back after a few months thinking that all I needed was a break.  But no.  It was far worse than that.  And I played for a few more months before I quit entirely.  It’s been hard.  I’ve since even stopped going to the forums because I get sucked in that way too.  And I know better.

So when I say I know how it is to be addicted to a game, I’m not kidding.  I know how it is.  I’ve been down that road.  I’ve seen the Dark Side (they don’t really have cookies, don’t let them fool you).  It took a lot of repairing to get my life back into shape, but I’ve done it and I won’t do that to myself again.

So I ask you to please keep your snide comments to yourself.  I don’t want them.  I started playing WoW because Walter has gone to Iraq and I need something time consuming and enjoyable to do so that I don’t spend all my time worrying about whether or not he’ll come home at all.

Don’t assume anything about me based on the short-comings of other people.  I am NOT other people.  And I’ll freaking play World Of Warcraft if I want to.  So get off my case.

I feel amazing today.  I really do!

I slept in a little bit, went to visit my cousin Crystal for about an hour before work, we figured out how to view picture messages on my cell phone (FINALLY!!!!), and I’m wearing a really cute short sleeved turtleneck-type sweater today.

Go me!

When I went out to clean off my car this morning the snow almost came all the way up to my knees.  Yeah, I don’t got snow boots either so my pants were soaked cold through to my skin, as were my socks.  Landlord doesn’t know how to plow, and needs to not be so lazy.  If I have the energy when I get out of work I’m going to shovel the driveway.

That’s a big IF!

I forgot to make lunch before I left the house but I was in a rush to get to Crystal’s and I’ll just go out to get Subway later on.  I could really go for a BLT!

Mike isn’t in the office today (blah).  And at Stop & Shop they don’t have the small boxes of Stouffer’s macaroni and cheese anymore!  All they have is the bigger ones, and just because I can eat it all doesn’t mean I should.

Also looking forward to playing Nerf wars with my office mates sometime late this afternoon.

Let’s see… what else?

Oh!  I had a kick ass weekend.  :]  I was all snowed in yesterday and I didn’t make it to work, but the weekend itself was awesome!

On Saturday I went to the movies.  All by myself!  I saw The Reader, which was freaking excellent by the way, and cried.  All by myself.  In the movie theater all by myself.  I felt like such a big girl!  Maybe next time I’ll get a soda!  Then I went to Alli’s new house.  Eh.  It’s better than their last apartment but I wouldn’t want to live there.  I probably won’t go over there again either.  I feel wicked uncomfortable there, and out of place.

I played FlyFF literally all day on Sunday.  There was a 2x exp event going on and went up a few levels.  Yay!  And I played all day yesterday, too.  It was good.

mC is sleeping over next weekend.  We’re going to do girly things and be girly together.  We don’t have to play anything ’cause no matter what we do we have a blast.

Yeah, so that’s about it.  I’m in an awesome mood.  I feel incredible.  I look cute.  My birthday is in 76 days, and I love my job!  I hope everyone else is having a good week too!!!!  :D

I’m working on a blog for later in the week that I hope I’ll be proud of.  For now I’ve got nothing, but I feel like blogging anyway.

I hate when I eat Doritos and I get cheese dust all over my fingers.  I HATE LICKING MY FINGERS.  I hate putting my fingers anywhere near my lips, and I hate the way Doritos make my fingers feel.  I may never eat them again.

OK, that’s a bit drastic but I’m feeling overly dramatic at the moment.

I just spoke got off the phone with one of our employees out in the field, and I’m rather peeved.  If I have to ask you to repeat yourself more than two times in one conversation because I didn’t understand a word you said, that in itself should warn you to PLEASE ENUNCIATE.  Having to ask anyone to repeat themselves over and over makes me feel stupid, but why does it make ME feel studpid if THEY are the ones with enlarged tongue syndrome or don’t know how to speak into a telephone properly?  I end up getting so frustrated that I could actually hurt someone by the time I’m off the phone.  Like right now, I want to scream at everyone here even though it has nothing to do with them.  I want to call that guy back and make him feel REALLY SMALL for making me feel stupid by not speaking his native language directly into the receiver instead of having the receiver tucked under his chin.

I’m eating Frosted Mini Wheats Little Bites in chocolate flavor.  They’re good.

I need something new and positive in my life, because I think I make myself sick.

I want to go home and play FlyFF.

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On a totally unrelated and yet positive note, there are only 102 days until my birthday.  Thanks for the pick-me-up Mike!

I want to thank everyone for their support on last Thursday’s blog.  I really appreciate it.  This weekend has been wicked hard for me.  Sean is miserable at AIT, I miss him so much, and I moved out of my grandmother’s house over the weekend and in with my sister Sarah.  It’s great living with her and my nephew.  I take showers that stay hot for more than two minutes.  Everyone knows how to undress themselves.  I’m in good company there.  Right now I don’t have the internet set up on my home computer but I’m not that worried about it just yet.  I will be soon though, I’ll start to go through FlyFF and CoD4 withdrawals and then I’ll worry.

Maybe I’ll get a laptop.  We’ll see how that goes.  I’ve been wanting one for a while now but I can’t afford one.  If I can get some overtime at work I’ll totally get one.  I’m at work early right now, but an hour and a half of overtime isn’t going to buy me a laptop.  I’m not going to be able to afford to go on the NKOTB cruise, but with everything that’s been going ok I’m ok with that.  I’ll probably be disappointed later on in the year, as the cruise dates draw closer, but for now my energy and focus are on other things.  More attainable things.  Things a lot closer to my heart.

In other news I watched Wishbone yesterday at my dad’s house.  I can’t believe that show still runs on PBS.  I used to love it, and it wasn’t disappointing to watch after so many years like a lot of older TV shows are when you out grow them.

I don’t have much else to say right now I guess.  I need to buy stamps later.  And envelopes.  This is shaping up to be a long four months.  I miss my boyfriend so much.

I’ve brought Dear Diary from Myspace to The PQ Nation.

Dear Diary

I’ve archived some of my favorite ‘Dear Diary’ entries of the last year from Myspace to be available here, and I’ll start writing again soon.

So check it out in your spare time.  I’ll probably get a subscriber option set up eventually.

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I’m feeling much much much much MUCH better than last week.  I’m glad I won’t be that sick for Christmas.

I stayed home sick most of last week so I spent all the days leveling up my characters on FlyFF.  I’ve now got a lvl 62 Knight, a lvl 23 Assist, and a lvl 33 Acrobat.  Alli was supposed to get online and play with me but she didn’t.

And no, FlyFF is not like WoW.  It’s better.  And free.

Unless you buy cash item things, like I do.  But playing is still free.

And yesterday I bought a baby monkey to follow me around and pick up all my items.  And I bought one for Sean.  Because I’m a good girlfriend.

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That’s about it for today, I’m bored and boring.  I’m not really feeling much like being online so I’m going to read and knit.  I kinda feel like I was away from the blogosphere for so long that there’s too much to catch up on right now, and my brain is all over the place.  I’ll get around to it eventually (probably later on tonight LOL).

I hope everybody had a great weekend!!

Are you all ready for Christmas?

Maybe I’ll ask for some for Christmas.  :]

It’s Friday, halfway through my workday, and I’m so ready for the weekend.

<– I like this picture.  I took it at Alli’s old apartment (they just moved) and I’m still so fascinated by word magnets.  Plus it’s all rainbow-y like sorta.

I hope everyone had a great trke day!  Mine was cool.  It was different, but cool.  It was the first time in about 10 years that I didn’t eat Thanksgiving dinner at my grandmother’s house and she wasn’t very happy about it (she’s so greedy with my time :]).  The food was good, the company was excellent, there were only two things missing but I’m not going to tell you what they were.

I finished making my 101 in 1001 list today and posted it as a separate page to my blog here (I’m not sure if making new pages alerts you through email).

I miss spending time with Alli.  I hope we can get together and go to the movies this week (although I’ll probably regret it because she’s that person who asks a billion questions during the movie even if you haven’t seen it before).  There’s a couple things out that I want to see.

I’m almost done getting Sean’s Christmas gifts in order.  I still need to buy stockings for us, but maybe we can do that this weekend (if we dare to go out in the sudden after-trke-day hullabaloo).  Probably Target or something.  I don’t know if I want to go all the way to Providence with all the crazies on the road.  Please.  There were a billion on my way to work in CHARLESTOWN.  I can only imaging how Providence will be this weekend.

The greatest part of my weekend is being with Sean.  After watching Heroes tonight I’m going right to his house.  I’ll make him play Flyff with me too, because he hasn’t played with me since last weekend.  There’s a new event going on over the weekend and I want to get a lot of the limited time offer items.  I’m all over that event stuff, LOL.

For the time being I’m going to have to read my book and hope the phones stay as slow as they’ve been.

What is everyone up to today?  Anything good?  Still in a trke coma?