Neurotic Ramblings

Posts Tagged ‘plans’

Omfg…I’m surprised I made it through today without my mother disowning me for being a heathen, my brother hating me for telling him he’s a total douche bag and my grandma crying because I refuse to let her talk shit about my ex-husband in front of the kids.  So, how was your day?

My mom is a morning person.  A “wake up at 6 in the morning with a smile on my face and sing-song wake up to everyone that we’re going to be late and it’s a beautiful day” kind of person.  I am not.  I need at least 15 minutes in between the time my eyes open and the time I am able to get my body out of bed and drag ass to the bathroom to splash water on my face.  Talking to me anytime in between that warrants a grunt and a “leave me alooooooone” and since she’s my mom and I can’t cuss that early in the morning a very inward “fuckmylifeIjustwanttosleeeeeeeep”.

Ok, fast forward through the next three hour drive which includes her making my brother practice the violin in the van, speeches on religion and salvation and my mp3 giving out on me.  I wanted to jump out of the van.  But then who would I argue with for the next two days?

Spent the entire day at Shabbat Services which was ok up until I thought we were done and they broke out the scripture list which looked like it would take five hours to get through (in reality it was 4 1/2).   Older German lady who I have always looked up to gave me props on me handling Caleb (felt great about that).  Got to see a friend I hadn’t seen in over six years, caught up and bitched about how we sooo wouldn’t be there if we didn’t have to and promised to keep in touch.  Doubt it will happen.

Didn’t get to see the bestie.  Arranged for my ex not to flip the fuck out about me leaving the kids with my mother-in-law for the next two weeks.  Ate the best fucking pancakes and eggs at Jim’s after bitching about not wanting to go there for twenty minutes.

Now I’m sitting here taking advantage of free wi-fi and venting my pretty little ass off.  I guess La Quinta really is Spanish for free high speed internet.

Good night ya’ll.

pdots…Wicked, Just A Girl and everyone else who’s in Vegas right now, have a drink for me, will ya?!

I want…to stop feeling so needy!  I feel like just screaming out “PAY ATTENTION TO MEEEEE!!!!” to no one in particular.

I want…for my friends who make plans to keep them.  I can’t even begin to tell you how royally pissed it makes me when I get cancelled on last minute because usually I’ve passed up other plans to do something with you, and then you pull that shit.  I don’t have time, energy or patience enough for this. 

I want…for this weird mood I’ve been in to settle.  The rollercoaster is fun when it’s up, but when it’s going down it feels like my lungs are going to jump out through my throat. 

I want…for my G1 phone to be activated already.  Why did I pay the $380 if I had to wait allll the damn way till next Friday???  ugh

I want…to have set plans and everyone follow my rules.  Lists and schedules make me sane.  Knowing what I am going to do and when I’m going to do it keeps me leveled.  Throw me off and you get this…a rambling blog about how royally pissed I am right now.

I want…a certain someone to text me back before I go batshit crazy.  Seriously, it’s not funny.  Quit that shit.

I want…to be at the island right now…laying on the cool sand while the sun’s rays warm my skin and give me a glorious tan…le sigh…