Neurotic Ramblings

Posts Tagged ‘OCD’

Whoo.

Taxes: filed

M’s glasses: ordered

Lost watching: in progress.

Jaja, I wish I could take a pic of Kbob right now.  He was talking my ear off a minute ago and right now that I turned to look  at him he’s fast asleep with his feet on my shoulder and his head hanging off the couch.  He’s a monkey even in his sleep.

Today was incredibly odd.  I spent the better part of two hours reading about deadly creatures of the sea and freaking myself out because who knows when I might one day decide to go scuba-diving and some colossal squid will be like “hmmm, there’s dinner” and drag me down to the abyss with its hooked tentacles and then whatever would everyone do without me around?!  I know!  The tragedy!!!  See people, it’s a good thing I worry about these things.

Seriously, would YOU want this thing swimming after you?!

Aren’t you glad I don’t post images on here often???

Anytwittles, I was in a “mood” for the rest of the day.  Not a bad mood, or a sad mood, but a “what the hell is wrong with me…ooo, shiny!, can we all go home now please?” mood.  Yeah, try explaining that one to your boss.  So it’s just easier to say “lady problems” and move it along and then all is well again.

I’ve decided that I’m going to delete my myspace.  I know, I’m totes late for the movement against “the man” or what not, but fashionably late.  I just need to get my new laptop, go through all my old blogs, save those, go through pics and save the ones I want to keep which I no longer have, and ohmyfkingoodness I’m exhausted just thinking about it.

See, I can organize things better than your average Susie Q.  As long as they are physical things.  Meaning I can touch them.  Files in a computer, though, drive me completely insane.  I don’t even download music because it’s a pain in my ass to organize it into folders that I can easily retrieve depending on my mood.  Can you imagine how I would do with five years worth of crap from a website that gave me my first outlet to the blogosphere???  No bueno.

So sometime, maybe, possibly, perhaps, I will brave my OCD demons and get rid of the whole damn thing and just leave it all behind because really, who wants to go back and reminisce about the dark times in their life?  Oh yeah, THIS drama queen does.

Well, my loves, this is enough rambling for one sitting considering I don’t even have a glass of wine in my hand (although one lovely lady offered to think of me while she downed hers so that has to count for something, right?).

So goodnight, lucid dreams, and as my buddy Normy says, beware of bedtime creatures.

Besos!

Oh, oh, oh!!!  THANK YOU to those of you who joined me on my Google Friend Connect.  I LOVES YOU!!!

I want to be able to get back to the point where words flowed freely from my fingers without second thought to syntax, grammar or spelling.  I want to be able to type out my feelings without going back and reading over them to make sure I typed what I really wanted to say. 

There was a time when my emotions poured out through my hands on the keyboard.  When I had no friends, when I had no other outlets, writing is the one thing that got me through.  It was raw, it was unfiltered, it was freeing.  It was me.<

Today is the beginning of the schedule of death.  Starting today I will have my head so far up life’s ass that I will lose myself in my own delusional reality just to escape for seconds at a time.  And you, my friend, get to read aaaall about it.

Because of the S.O.D. I will have to schedule time to spend with kids, family and friends.  My OCD persona likes this.  My “live life this moment” one does not.

Eh, I’ll manage.  Just 3 days of waking up at 6 am and going to bed at midnight with work, school, homework, kids, projects, working out and life all packed into 72 short hours. 

Someone hand me the xanax, plsnthnx.

Hey, who knows, maybe I’ll be so busy I’ll forget to eat and drop a few lbs as a result!  I wouldn’t be too mad about that.  Oh wait, yes I would because none of my damn pants fit me the way I like anymore!!!  I don’t do “loose fit”.  Damnit, I want my ass back and I want it NOW!

 Anyway, I had like a ton of stuff to ramble on but my head is spinning out webs of schedules and spreadsheets and budgets so I can’t really focus it all and get it out quickly enough to make sense of it. 

I can smell cigarette smoke in my office and it’s making me crave one but I’m beggining to get a headache and that wouldn’t be good for anyone.

Aaaaaanyway.

My page is getting a fabulous makeover thanks to the fabulous Jamie.  If I wasn’t a WordPress rehtahrd I’d totally link her but I don’t know how to so just click on the button to your right.  Do it. 

Oh, and I have a nice little TMI story for you coming on Thursday courtesy of my partner in crime.  (sherapedaboyandhelikedit) and not boy as in “underage”, boy as in “I refer to all potential guys of interest as boys because that’s how we roll” so leave your judgments at the red x. kthxbai.

Ok peoples, back to the grind I go.  Wish me luck or at least to not die the death of a thousand post-its.

Besitos!

This weekend = insanity.

I did sooo much shopping and none of it was enjoyable.  School supplies, uniforms and more school supplies. 

Oh, and new tennis for Kbob and some new padded, yes, padded bras for M.  That girl needs to quit growing.  End of story.

My living room looked like a herd of crazy cows had trampled through an Office Depot.  My OCD was in overdrive trying to get all the supplies labeled, organized and packed but we finished in under two hours which is not bad considering we snuck a last minute trip to Wal-Mart in there in search for non-existant red pens.

So in summary, the kids were dropped off at school this morning, lockers were organized and teachers were greeted.  I cannot wait to pick them up and hear all about their first day. 

In other news, I am happy to say that I am surrounded by the most amazing, caring, selfless, kind people I’ve met in a long time.  My circle of friends is great one.  Something happened this weekend that really made me realize that there are still good people out there who will not think twice about helping a friend out.  Humanity is not lost entirely.

I am sooo looking forward to the end of the workday, picking up my kiddos, and then I’m going to get a well-deserved mani/pedi, buy my books for school and sneak in a bit of shopping for myself.  Can.not.wait.

How was your weekend?

I want…to stop feeling so needy!  I feel like just screaming out “PAY ATTENTION TO MEEEEE!!!!” to no one in particular.

I want…for my friends who make plans to keep them.  I can’t even begin to tell you how royally pissed it makes me when I get cancelled on last minute because usually I’ve passed up other plans to do something with you, and then you pull that shit.  I don’t have time, energy or patience enough for this. 

I want…for this weird mood I’ve been in to settle.  The rollercoaster is fun when it’s up, but when it’s going down it feels like my lungs are going to jump out through my throat. 

I want…for my G1 phone to be activated already.  Why did I pay the $380 if I had to wait allll the damn way till next Friday???  ugh

I want…to have set plans and everyone follow my rules.  Lists and schedules make me sane.  Knowing what I am going to do and when I’m going to do it keeps me leveled.  Throw me off and you get this…a rambling blog about how royally pissed I am right now.

I want…a certain someone to text me back before I go batshit crazy.  Seriously, it’s not funny.  Quit that shit.

I want…to be at the island right now…laying on the cool sand while the sun’s rays warm my skin and give me a glorious tan…le sigh…