Neurotic Ramblings

But isn’t this the way everything goes?  The grass is always greener, the pillow always colder…

Come winter time I’ll be longing for hot summer days where just sitting next to each other produces smoldering heat that makes our bodies shimmer and layers of clothes slowly start to come off…

For now, I’ll relish in this gorgeous spring breeze where walks on the beach won’t scald your feet and eating ice cream in the sun doesn’t mean having to lick the scoop right off the cone.  I’ll enjoy the early sunrises and late sunsets and the chance to play soccer at the park in the middle of the day without having to worry about it getting too hot or too cold in the next few minutes.

The grass is greener when I’m with my family.  The pillow is colder when he’s next to me.  Life is just better when we’re together.

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maybe not the best example, but I love this picture

Yesterday…
M had her last soccer game of the season. They played against a team that has gone the last three seasons and tournaments undefeated. And then they played our girls…it was a 3-3 tie. I’m still working on recovering my voice.

I played some football with my boys. We had a blast.

I got an awesome workout doing nothing more than channeling my inner child and getting down and dirty with the kids.

I broke my diet and had pizza and beer for dinner.

I was reminded that there are good people left in this world. People who will not judge you for your shortcomings; who will stand by your side and hold your hand and tell you it’s ok as you fight and struggle to figure it all out.

On the other hand I was also reminded that there are those that choose to judge and take a high and mighty attitude. Glass houses, people.

Today:
I woke up with a positive attitude and a resolve to have yet another amazing weekend.

I am thankful to have someone by my side that loves me for me and everything that comes along with me. It takes an incredibly strong person to love me. Trust me on this.

I am counting down the hours until I get out of work. There are a million and one fun things to do and being at work is not one of them.

I plan on getting as much done as I can so I can relax most of the weekend and not worry about laundry or mopping or cleaning the bathroom.

I plan on being, loving, laughing, and living, to the fullest extent of myself.

Have a great weekend my loves.
Besos!

Since I noticed I still have some stalkers out there, I figured I might as well just entertain them a bit, no? What better way to offer up info than in cryptic, obscure messages delivered à la Open Letter!

Dear Person Who Thinks I Don’t Know Who They Are,

You’re an idiot.  A stupid, pathetic, sad, sad idiot.  Get a life and quit being obsessed with mine.

Love, Me

Dear You,

I’ve got nothing left to say except for wow.  I should have known better though.  Shame on me.

Love, It’s All Gooood

Dear people who drive 30 on a 50 every fucking day on my way to work:

MOVE THE FUCK OVER!  Do I need to go all Mystikal up on yo’ ass?  Move, bitch! Get out the way!!!

Love, I would be on time every day if it weren’t for you.

Dear Modern Family,

You rock my socks.  You never fail to make me laugh, even when people are being complete and utter morons.

Love, hugs & kisses, Bored At Home

Dear Mark Salling,

Dayum.  I’m still trying to find a flaw, and while some say it’s your arrogance, that’s just more of a turn on.  I like my guys cocky. *ahem*  jiji

Love, hugs,  & gropes, Totally In Lust

Dear LiLu,

Thank you for coming up with In It To Gym It.  While I haven’t posted or commented much, every post I read is inspiration to keep going towards a healthier me.  So thanks to you and all the awesomely amazing contributors!

Love, Me

Oh, oh, oh, and before I forget…

Dear Google Analytics,

I totes <3 you.  Knowing who’s reading, from where, and when amuses me to no end.

Love ya, mean it!

And with that, I’m out.

Besitos!!!

OMG I am TIRED.

Today was incredibly productive considering the fact that I got out of bed at around 2 pm.  What can I say, I love my bed!

I finally got a new battery for my phone.  It seems this did cure the whole issue with it randomly shutting off and leaving me talking to myself like a damn idiot and people getting pissed at me because they think I hung up on them.  The old battery was ridiculous.  It was swollen…like, really swollen.  Weird.

I also finally got my car’s oil changed.  This lead to finding out I needed a new battery for it as well, so a couple of dolla dolla bills yo’ later, my unreliable car is running like a dream. 

Oh, I also managed to do about 5 loads of laundry, clean my entire apartment, grocery shop and even snuck in lunch with the bffs.

Am I good, or what?!

I stayed out late last night so I figured today would be spent in bed and nothing would get accomplished. 

We went to a free concert at South Padre (I didn’t know it was a tejano music concert, but it was still lots of fun).  Apparently since it’s free, this means people drag their newborns, toddlers, bratty kids and even ancient grandparents along.  One long ass line later we were in the VIP area with a cape cod in one hand, a cig in the other, and admiring the view from up top.  The beach is so pretty at night.

Have you all ever partied with really old winter Texans?  Neither had I, until last night.  Oh boy…let me tell you what!  This man must have been at least 70 years old…the singer was in her 60’s and everyone else in the bar was around 40s-50s. Well, the old young man had the time of his life dancing to poker face with us thanks to some encouragement from out guy friends.  It was an odd night, but lots of fun! 

Oh, if you haven’t tried the Oyster Rockerfella at Amber Jack’s you need to do so as soon as you can.  They are to die for. 

I should probably get some rest.  I’ve got lots of shopping to do tomorrow plus apparently we’re camping out at the beach.  I’m seriously loving this weekend.  I hope you guys are having a good one too!

Besos!

Howdy, ya’ll!!!

Happy Hump Day & a Happy Thirsty Thursday to boot since I’m posting this tonight.

Oh, also…HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY to one of the most beautiful, intelligent and amazingly awesome women I know: Princess Quello!!!  I know, now she goes by DC Princess, but she’ll always be my PQ, OG fo’ life ma!  jejeje

I’m totes spazzy right now. 

Turns out I’m doing much better than I thought I was in my classes which makes for a very happy Pecosie.  I’m going to celebrate tomorrow by going to the island with some friends for a concert & some after parties.  I haven’t been out in SO long and fuck it, I deserve to by now!  Good way to start the month of April: good friends, good drinks, great times.

Thanks to all of you who have joined the site on Google Friend Connect!!!  Love you guys!

Also, I <3 Google Analytics.  Such a nifty tool…I have to do a thank you blog to all of you who have sent traffic my way…seriously, thank you!

Oh, and by the way, it’s telling me a ton of my site visits are from iphones, what gives, people?!  Tell me how to unlock my phoooone! 

I really need to quit posting at night when my mind is going a million miles a minute but my fingers are operating at a Geo pace.  This is how sucky posts happen.

And on that note, good night, and have a pleasant tomorrow.

Besos!

Let’s see, where do we start?

I always hate posting really big news anywhere because I’m scared I’ll jinx myself.  The day I posted that I had bought an iPhone, I found out I have to wait until the hack for the 3.1.3 update is released to be able to connect it.  The day I posted I was going to Austin, I had car issues and was never able to make it.  That’s happened about five damn times.  So you can hopefully understand my reluctance to posting anything on here about my relationships when they’re going well. 

 That being said, I’m in love.  Deeply, madly, stupidly in love.  I’m so incredibly happy that it’s borderline ridiculous.  It’s a passionate love, one that I hadn’t experienced in so long.  It’s scary, but it’s good.  And that’s all I’m going to say about that.

Moving right along…Spting Break 2010…

I overhyped it.  I always do.  It was uneventful.  Incredibly uneventful.  I went to the island ONCE.  And I was back home and in bed by 2.  That about sums it up.  Yup.

Oh, I did discover that I’m too old for that shit.  People gyrating and acting like fools around me no longer appeals to me.  I guess this is growing up???  Maybe I just needed my girls there…yeah, that’s probably it.

Anyway, there are SO many things I’m looking forward to in the next couple of months but my mind is too cluttered right now to share them with you so I’ll bid you dolls good night.

Besitos!

Oh, P.S., If you know anyone who can help me unlock my iphone 3GS to work on Tmobile, please let me know!  It’s running on v 3.1.3.  Thanks, love ya lots!

Holy effing geez, people!

I’m bursting at the seams with emotion right now!

This morning has been spent in moments of “OMG I’m so happy I’m gonna cry” and dry heaving because OMG, I really could cry right now but all that comes out is a breathy sob. But it’s a weird sob, like sadness enveloped in happy, wrapped in rainbows and sprinkled with fairy dust…

What the hell is UP with me today?!

I don’t know, but I’m by no means complaining. This is a good change.

Today has been full of normalcy. It’s weird. But good. So Yay!

I had lunch with the BFFS at C&C Wings and had the creepiest waiter who just so happens to be new and just so happened to take a liking to me (of course he did, all the weird ones do), but I forgot where I was going with this…I guess spazzy me is back and whooo! Thank goodness!

I have made it a point to take a day off and go to the beach with the BFFS next week even if it means me & Ricky Bobby have to drag Lo out by her hair. I will make it out to the beach at least once during this Spring Break, damnit. I.WILL.
In talking to the BFFS I mentioned the fact that scrolling marquees have been flashing randomly in my view lately. No, not real marquees…imaginary ones. If you’ve been reading long enough, you know that this is not an odd occurrence.

Today’s read: EXISTENTIALISM in big, flashy gold lights just the likes of Vegas. I will take this as a clue and imagine myself existing in Vegas and make it happen this year fo’ sho’. See? I even used slang so you KNOW it’s gonna happen.

Anyfuckingwho…yeah. SPI, Vegas, AustinInJune…here I come!!!

Happy Friday everyone! I hope yours is fan-fucking-tastical as mine!!!

Love ya, besos!

To say this was a loooong day would be such a huge understatement.

Work had it’s good moments, but today was a day I couldn’t wait to escape from. 

I feel like I’ve been running around since the minute I left the parking lot.  Drive home and get the soccer uniform, pick up the kids all the way across town, rush to practice.  This damn weather doesn’t help either.  It’s windy and muggy and humid and chilly all at the same time and the mosquitos look like something out of a sci-fi movie. 

It’s a million little things all rolled into one big, hellatious day.  Pick up laundry, drop off laundry, finding time to actually DO the laundry, clean the apartment, pick up the living room, ask the kids a billion times if homework is done and for the eleventy billionth time, take a shower!!!

It’s overwhelming.  And at the same time, I look around and think, damn, I have it good.  I have a nice place to live, I’m finally feeling at home here.  I have a car that while ugly, is reliable.  My kids have everything they need and so many damn extras that really, they’re quite spoiled.  But they help me out a lot around the house too so it’s a give and take sitch.  It works. 

I think I’m so exhauseted from thinking all damn day.  I expend so much energy worrying about the larger scheme of things that I forget to take a breath and live in the moment.  I’ve been thinking that something that’s supposed to be right shouldn’t take this much work.  Maybe if I take things a little less seriously, I can actually enjoy my time and be happy.  Don’t get me wrong, I am happy right now.  But the what-ifs and what-abouts are a little too much to take sometimes.  The long term goals will be reached with or without the worries so there’s no point in worrying in the insignificance that the now sometimes brings.  It’s my fault, really.  We all know I over analyze.  I obsess.  I work out every scenario and always prepare for the worst while hoping for the best.  But why?  Maybe it’s ok to live in my bubble.  Stop trying to burst it.

I don’t know anymore.

What I do know is that today at M’s practice Kbob and I took a walk to the car.  I held his hand in mine and we walked together in silence.  His little face looked up and just smiled and every single worry, every stressful thought, every single moment that had made today a bad day just melted away. 

Enjoy the little things in life.  I won’t always have my baby boy the way he is now.  He won’t always be my baby and want to walk hand in hand with me.  M won’t always need me to be there for her practices cheering her on.  They’ll eventually grow up and I’ll be in the sidelines, still cheering, but I won’t have a little hand to squeeze back.  That’s the reason why I’m here.  That’s the reason I go to work everyday.  That’s the reason I’m going to school.  Focus.  Perspective.  I’ve got it.

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Wicked, Fi, Aymie & Cass, I just barely saw your comments today.  <3 you girls!

Anywhoozle…

I took Thing 1 & Thing 2 to watch Alice In Wonderland this weekend.  Let me just tell you, it was amazing. 

I’m a huge fan of the original.  I remember watching it as a kid and being completely entranced by the bizarre aspect of it all.  It wasn’t so much Alice’s journey throughout the movie; it was the characters and their stories that drew me in and took me away.  It was all so amazingly odd…the dog with a broom for whiskers and a tail, the little foghorn ducks, the scary talking flowers…so judgy! 

But I think my favorite character, well, no, not favorite because that would be the Red Queen…what can I say, I relate with her the most…jajjaja…

Anyway, as I was saying, the character that had the most impact on me was the Caterpillar.  I can almost trace back my love for words to that one scene in the movie where he begins to speak…or maybe it was the hookah that drew me in     Just the simple enunciation of “Whoooo aaarrrre youuuuuu” did me in.

I love this movie for the oddness of it all.  It gives me a certain comfort.  Maybe it’s the missing Prince Charming and Alice not having to be rescued by him.  Maybe it’s just the plain and simple fact the impossible is only held within a realm that we create ourselves and if  we dream and imagine just enough, we can let reality melt and fantasy take us away.

le sigh…

I leave you with one of my favorite songs of all time… White Rabbit by Jefferson Airplane

White Rabbit by Jefferson Airplane

Let’s change this up a bit, shall we?

Remember when I was all “I’m awesome, and gorgeous, and amazing and pretty and funny and a dance machine and omg, wouldn’t you just loooove to be me?!” ?

Yeah, I don’t either.  I seem to have taken myself off my own pedestal and didn’t even realize it. 

But guess what?!  I’m baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack! 

Yes, the narcissistic diva you’ve grown to love to hate is back with a vengenace. A girl’s gotta make up for lost time.

Life has been fabulous.  The parties have been amazing and every day has proven to be better than the last.

It’s incredible what one good day can do to change your perspective.  Just yesterday this blog would have been wah wah wah, but no.  I don’t have time for that.

I’m getting back to my stuck up, pretentious, better-than- you self and not making any apologies for it.  Wanna know why?  Because I am fan-fucking-tastic, that’s why.

And by “you”, you know I don’t mean you, my loves.  Ya’ll know I love each and every one of you!!!

But I’m serious.  I dress the part, I walk the part, I talk it and live it, I just don’t know why it hasn’t been coming across on here. 

I read my blogs and my skin crawled.  Who is this dark, whiny person who has seem to have taken over for me and why is she bitching all the time and not even in a sarcastic manner???

Unacceptable, my friends. 

Everything used to be so tongue-in-cheek, inside joke, look at us we’re fabulous…and then BAM!  Negativity central hit.  And the weird part was that it happened just as everything is so awesome in my personal life. 

I don’t need to be miserable to crank out a good blog.  I can do it just fine when I’m oh so happy.  I just need to sharpen up my wit and cook up some snark and I’m on my way with a recipe for Pecosaliciousness. 

Oh yes honey, I’m back.