The One Where I am Thankful
Nov 26, 2009 Current Events, Etc., Family, Friendship, Out of Wicked's Mouth, Out with the Old Wicked in with the New Wicked, The Tarably Wicked Show, This Thing Called Marriage., Thoughts and Perceptions, Wicked Wisdoms, love
Happy Day of Thanks everyone!
I was sitting here, at my parents house thinking about my boo-hoo’s, missing my D and mad at his ass for not being here today. (If you don’t know or haven’t read between the lines yet you aren’t privy.) Then I remembered that I am not a boo-hoo-er, nor am I the one to be all “someone pissed in my cheerios poor me” either.
So I got up and came here. To my place. Where I talk myself out of being an asshole or the hostess of my own pity party. Among other things of course.
I am Thankful for my own little nook here on the internet. It is my online diary. My online receptacle of all things ranty and annoying about my life, your lives and the lives of people that should be lined up and shot at.
I am Thankful for life. Many people that either I have loved or whom someone I love has loved have passed this past year and with every death is a reminder of how precious life is.
I am Thankful for love. I asked recently would you rather have fallen in love and experienced heartbreak or never have loved at all … I would rather endure that pain 100 times over to simply have felt what love is rather than not know.
I am Thankful for friendship. True friendship. Over the past few years I have ended shallow friendships and gained some unexpected and immensly important friendships with people who I now wonder how I ever lived with out. I appreciate them all equally but for different reasons.
I am Thankful for my ride or die bitches. You know who you are. My ladies don’t need to have attention called to their name. My TRUE bitches are smiling right now because they know who they are.
I am Thankful for family. I don’t have much left but who I do have are so special.
I am Thankful for my children.
I am Thankful for my husband.
I am Thankful for the ability to think, speak and act for myself.
I am just Thankful.
Have a great rest of your day. Feel free to share what you are Thankful for today. You know mionlinecasa essuonlinecasa.
(pee ess I WILL BE Thankful for some sex when I get it. For now, I am Thankful for the Almighty Diddle.)
Tags: thanksgiving
Thankful For…
Nov 27, 2008 Friendship, Thoughts and Perceptions
No melodrama today. I just felt the need to share my thanks and love.
I am thankful for…
… the surprise that I didnt have class this evening.
… family
… numbah 1
… salon appointments
… my new fuck-buddy facebook
… my kids
… 4.0 gpa
… having a roof and heat and lights and the most comfortable bed ever
… $1.45 gas
… the ability to hear music
… my employed
… my health
… My Tribe
… rays of sunlight
… new razor blades
… sex
… kanisha and tara and rachael and tori
… not being a dumb bitch
… 5 day weekends
… my own successful blog page.
… your thoughts and insights every day
… laughter
… a good cry sometimes
YOU GO.
even though you are hearing it over and over again, please share at least on thing that you are thankful for.
Happy Thanksgiving Loves!
Tags: thanksgiving
Random Tea
Nov 15, 2008 Parenting, Random
I get to go out with some ladies tonight. Yay for that.
Even more yay are the super cute jeans I bought at the consignment store that I am wearing tonight. It is nice to have cute going-out jeans.
Yay for a quiet, clean house. Charli is finally sleeping, X is reading and D is out at a BBQ with friends. He needed to geofhere. He was starting to drive me nuts as he became more and more stir crazy. Charli isnt helping either, due to her excessive fucking brattiness.
X doesnt know it yet, but he is busted. His friends mom called me and told me that he has been talking about sneaking this stupid GTA4 game over tonight for his friends slumber party. Sure enough, while X was outside, I checked his backpack and there it was, behind the Kung-Fu Panda movie. Sneaky little fucker. It is a huge no-no at his friends house. Shit, it is a huge no-no at my house too. He also has been telling his friend that D lets him play this offensive and inappropriate game when I am not home. D laughed so hard when I called him. If it wasnt this kids birthday party, X would be going no-motherfucking-where tonight. But this kid doesnt really know anyone here since they just moved here… so I would hate to do that to him.
After tomorrow, he is getting an ass whoopin. And his butt is grounded. I cannot believe the level of sneakyness he is portraying. I may take a picture of the stupid look on his face when I call his ass out.
I really wanna go see a movie with D. We havent been in so god damn long.
We decided to get eachother a gift to the spa for Christmas this year. We are gonna do that, have dinner, see a movie and stay overnight at a hotel. I cannot fucking wait. BrownSugarVanillaBodyScrub&HotStoneMassage&5TotalHoursOfRelaxation here we come.
Christmas is 6 weeks away. W T F. Out of nowhere.
I put my foot down and said we are hosting Thanksgiving here. We have enough space,and I simply do not want to drive an hour.
I am sipping Chardonney as we speak. MmMmMmM.
Should I wear a hat tonight?
I am hungry. I want a cheeseburger. And fries.
Have I mentioned that I need a soul fill up? All my soul sistahs say “HeeeyyyGirlHeeeyyy”!!!
I am jealous of Zoe’s ink.
My landlord is a douchebag.
My co-workers son came home and told his mom that this bully kept calling him a douchebag, so at recess, he said to him “I am a douchebag huh? How do you know what one is? Do you use them? Do you want me to get you a clean one for Christmas? How about some glitter body spray too??” That bully didnt have shit to say. HAH. MY co-worker said she wouldnt be mad if he got this little shit some Massengil for a gag gift either. Even if he got in trouble. I bet that little fucker knocked it the fuck off. I wouldnt be mad either. Serves that bully right.
I need to start primping. Going out beauty takes time. In segments. It is a whole process. I wish Tara was here though, I like getting ready with her.
You go. Pour yourself some Random Tea.
Tags: bully, christmas, douche bag, gift, girls night, going out, GTA, quiet, sneaky, thanksgiving, wine
t.h.o.u.g.h.t.s
Nov 14, 2008 Random, Thoughts and Perceptions
Do you ever wonder what people are doing in the exact same moment as you?
Here I sit, avoiding 2 overflowing baskets of laundry, wondering what someone else is doing. Are they wondering what I am doing? Are they avoiding 2 similarly overflowing baskets of mismatched socks and mens’ boxer briefs?
Prolly not.
Other people are bustling out the door to the bar right now, 2-3 shots deep and ready to have mindless sex with some guy/girl named Kelly. They are nose deep in a really kick ass book, their ipod softly serenading the soundtrack. They are zoning out on Myspace bulletins and silly mobsters apps. Some other people are playing World Of Warcraft.
Not me.
I am thinking about Q. What is she doing? Is she feeling better? Does her tummy still hurt?
I am thinking about my mom.
I am thinking about how I can walk Squish through changing her alternator.
I am thinking about that same beautiful house I pass by on the way home from work that did not have Christmas Lights up the evening prior… but did have them up tonight. That house looks warm on the inside. It looks like pitterpatters go on there every morning at about 7am. It looks like it smells like pancakes and mimosas on Sunday mornings. I hear laughter inside that house. I wish that house was my house every single morning and even moreso every single evening.
I am thinking about how it is almost a year ago since I had a soul fill up.
I am thinking about past lovers.
I am thinking about my current lover, and whether or not he is really ok.
I am thinking about whether or not I am really ok.
The holidays make me feel reflective. I get internal; hibernat-y for lack of a better description. I am not yet accepting that Thanksgiving is only 2 friggen weeks away. I am trying to get all “WOO TURKEYDAY IS APON US!!!” But I dont feel excited. I dont feel not excited either. I just kinda feel like life is rushing past my face and I am standing in slow motion as it races by. Almost like I am standing in the middle of the freeway, and all of the cars are passing me at 70mph.
Dont get me wrong though. I am not sad or depressed… I am just here.
Do you ever feel like that?
Like your feet are stuck in newly laid cement on a sidewalk?
No matter how god damn hard you try to just run like Forrest fucking Gump… you cannot fucking move.
Since when did things seem to be more hassle than enjoyable?
The scrooge-ette in me wants to say fuck these over commercialized holidays. But with kids, it would be taking something from their childhood experience if I did. It would be selfish of me to do something like that. Maybe after Thanksgiving happens, I will feel more in this thing all of the commercials and advertisements call ‘holiday spirit’.
Sometimes I wish that I had it carefree. A life of mindless sex with Kelly and roller blades to skate alongside the speeding vehicles on the freeway of existence.
Are you feeling bluesy about the upcoming holidays? Do you even realize the closeness of this corner we are fast approaching?
What do you do to try and get excited or in ‘the spirit’? (Please share… I am asking for advice here)
What is on your mind today? Good, Bad, New… ???
You go.
Tags: blues, carefree, christmas, holiday, holiday spirit, thanksgiving, think
