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Honest Tuesday’s: I am a Softie.

Dec 15, 2009 All Things Charli, All Things X, DUH, Family, Honest Tuesday's, Out with the Old Wicked in with the New Wicked, Parenting, Wicked MOMMY Wisdoms

Hello and welcome to Honest Tuesdays!

It has been brought to my attention (by me) that I have become soft in my old age.

I know. Shocking, isn’t it?

Remember how yesterday we talked about decisions? Well I had made a decision originally to deny Xavier of any and all things Christmas. No tree. Not a single decoration in my house. I hoped that Charli wouldnt know the difference … but I was totally wrong because this 2 year old is all about some Christmas and presents and Santa. As much as it hurt to the core to be the bad guy, I have reluctantly stuck to my guns, leaving me in a place where I am questioning my decision.

Am I being a bad mommy?!
Is he gonna hate me forever?!
Is this even going to get the point across?!
Am I the Grinch?! Officially?

I don’t want to be The Grinch! I love the holiday season. The lights, the feeling of giving love to another person. … all of it.

Not only that but I have had input from peanut galleries all across the world. One who’s opinion I value more than she knows.

Over a great deal of alcohol, she reminded me about what all of this was really about. Love. Sharing with the people who we love the most … tokens of our affection over the holidays. Yes, I will admit that she told me about myself. I had to pull myself out of my own stubbornness to see it, but she was right.

So…. this weekend, we are gonna get a tree. And we are gonna decorate it. Just the 3 of us. And, I am gonna put some presents under there. It wont be this big ordeal like it always has been, but we will keep the Christmas Eve pajama tradition … and … Xavier will have a couple of things from me under the tree this year.

Because this season is about love. And, as mad as I am at him … I love him more than I think he realizes.

As easy is it for me to say “fuggetabout” it about the holidays, I am doing my kids a disservice for being that way. I am not that mom. And, let’s face it. I am being fucking pouty and bitter and selfish and I need to knock it the fuck off.

So there. I was honest. 100%. Now it is your turn. What have you been less than honest about lately?

Also, do you have any Christmas traditions with your families?

Tags: christmas, christmas tree, honest tuesday, Parenting, presents, santa