mykidsandDneedtocomehometheend.
Jun 16, 2009 All Things Charli, All Things X, Family, Friendship, Parenting, Random, Relationships, This Thing Called Marriage., Thoughts and Perceptions
I have had enough of this kidsDbeinggonebullshit. When I was driving home today I was all sappy-like, planning to blog about how my feeling all funky and cranky and weird wasn’t PMS … it was that I felt lost … or empty without them here.
For the first few days I was elated to be alone with my thoughts … free to do whatever I felt like doing whenever I felt like doing it. Annnnnnnnnnnnd… Tara was all up in my business to keep me busy the whole time. I wonder if she knew that she was doing it. Keeping my mind off of the fact that I inevitably was going to miss the shit out of my kids.
Inevitably happened. Now I miss them and even though I have little things that make me happy for like 5-10 minute incriments (my VEGAS SHOES CAME and WE GOT A NEW PLACE TO LIVE THAT IS COOLER THAN THIS STUPID PLACE and I LOST 10 POUNDS and BOUGHT 2 DRESSES) … they aren’t back to back incriments … so I am on this stupid ride of highs and lows like that one swing ride at the fair. (except that swing is my favorite ride other than the ferris wheel at the fair so it isnt a fair metaphor. boo)
(Someone insert a high/low ride quick before I cry again.)
I am not the only one freaking out. Jackson (kitty face) is pacing the house, looking for any sign of someone other than me. He is entangling himself through my feet, tripping me where ever I go through the house. And then today, he was waiting for the door to open and he ran outside and wouldnt come back in.
Kitty face hates me.
Wanna know who else is freaking out? Miss MyLibido Masturbates-alot.
I tried to think about doing the sex with D all dirty spank me like. (DENIED)
I tried to watch my favorite gangbang porn. (No dice)
I tried to do it while D was talking to me really quick so he didnt notice. (R is for REJECTED.)
Bottom Line: I am pathetic. P – AH – THEH – TIC without my family.
The chaos.
The noise.
The Charli climbing all over me like a jungle gym.
The Xavier’s smart ass mouth. (ooooh he is in trouble when he gets home I will blog about it tomorrow and even though he is I still miss the shit out of him)
The D … everything. (sadface)
Soooo I am a big fat mess of missmykidsandD. I can’t focus and I keep crying so be nice to me or I might end up a puddle of patheticness right at your feet.
Tell me a joke to cheer me up.
Or an inspirational quote.
Or a new pick-up line for Miss MyLibido Masturbates-alot
Or a new porn movie/mag to check out.
