Honest Tuesday’s — 1
Oct 19, 2009 Current Events, Honest Tuesday's, Out of Wicked's Mouth, This Thing Called Marriage., Wicked Wisdoms, love
As I have approached and now recently hit 30 I have realized something about myself.
I prefer to leave options open. I am married. I get it. I love my husband. Buuuuuuuuuut, it is enjoyable to know 100% that I could possibly have sex with another individual if I wanted to.
I know. This is wrong on so many different levels.
Listen. It is what it is. If I am convinced in my own Wicked head that you would fuck me, or you display Iwouldfuckyourbrainsout behaviors around/to me … I am not going to burst your bubble and tell you it will never happen. That is plain rude.
Who am I to tell you who you can and cannot fuck anyway?
Furthermore, as much as I adore my husband, nothing is ever 100% forever. What if something crazy happened? Define crazy? Does death and dismemberment sound crazy? What if he simply gets tired of my face and leaves me? What if I decide that I am a lesbian and not bisexual?
All I am saying is that if my knowing what you know and you knowing that I know is all that we know, then who is it hurting?
I am sure that many of you who know me in “real life” are all like “duh this is not new information Courtni” and some of you might be calling D right now to be all like “dang D your wife is a bigfatslutwhore-faceteasepants” because I has officially written a blog about the fact that I have had knowledge of a person wanting to fuck me and not squashing the thought first-hand.
Whatever if you do.
Whatever if you are judging my very moral existence.
Fine.
It goes with the territory of saying what everyone is thinking but no one wanting to admit that they are thinking it. Or doing it for that matter.
My point is that people want to fuck people. It is human nature. People, no matter how hard they try to suppress it, think about fucking other people all the time. Now that I am 30, comfortable in my own skin, comfortable in my marriage I am all about just being fucking honest about shit.
Tuesday’s honest moment: Allowing another individual think that they might have a chance to see my vagina for purely selfish and egotistical reasons.
Would you like to share with me in a moment of honesty on this fine Tuesday?
Who was your first celebrity crush?
Have you ever had sex with someone out of pity?
Tags: death and dismemberment, fuck, honesty, human nature, husband, Sex
October 19th, 2009 at 23:17
My first “celebrity” crush would have had to have been Ricky Schroeder from Silver Spoons… He’s still not too bad looking, but he’s way down on my radar…
As for pity fucks – nope… but, then, I’m a bit more reserved as far as full out sexing goes.. Or have been in my recent past… Still can’t see that I’d fuck someone out of pity, though.. there’d have to be genuine interest on my part…
LivingWicked Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 23:36
Oh Ricky Schroeder.
October 19th, 2009 at 23:20
First celebrity crush? Well – before I KNEW what was what….probably Donny Osmond (I know, I know….I can hear the collective groans). Once I grew old enough for the naughties to tingle….VINNIE BARBARINO….John Travolta or Paul Michael Glaser (no I don’t know if I spelled it right and no I’m not googling that shit at 2:04 in the morning). Pity sex? Yep. And it was pity-ful…..except for this one time. A friend’s cousin was staying with them for the summer. MAMA-MIA…..it started out as pity and then he showed me a thing or two. Weird though because I didn’t want ANYTHING to do with him outside of that. One of the “count-on-one-hand” times I did such a thing. *GASP*
I think it’s great that you’re comfortable in your own skin at 30. Thirty. Geesh. Bitch. I’m so far this side of 30 I don’t even remember what that felt like. Actually it is my mid-30’s that I remember most vividly. Probably the only time I ever really felt good in my own skin…..sexy and in control. That is powerful stuff.
Whatever your truth is…..honesty is key.
We all think about things like that and anybody that says they don’t EVER is full of crap IMO…..or lying to themselves.
I don’t know if I can continue to have conversations here about sex. I am literally climbing the walls. Like serious howl at the moon level tension.
I want to get this weight off. I want to be loved. I want to be happy.
I want a massage. Not a half-assed back rub but a getmenakedslathermeinoilandgototownfromheadtotoe kind of massage.
Is that so much to ask for? *grin*
I love you and miss your pretty face.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 23:44
You will keep coming back for sex talk. It is reason # 34446123264 why we are friends.
It is powerful stuff. I cannot believe that I am here and feeling this powerful.
You’re gonna. You will be. You will be.
It is not too much to ask for.
I miss you more.
October 20th, 2009 at 00:36
A moment of honesty… I am currently feeling extremely jealous of most of the women I am closest to…
First celebrity crush was Patrick Swayze… My Aunt snuck me out to see Dirty Dancing when I was 8 (My Dad had told me I wasn’t allowed to see it cos of it’s rating) and I was in love…. Still love that movie.
Never had sex out of pity,
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:08
What is the jealousy stemmed from?
<3 Swayze
Kylie Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 10:56
I really want what they’ve all managed to find, happy relationships with Men who adore them, children ..
It’s hit me really hard since I turned 30 .. and even more so since my closest girlfriend (who was also the only single friend I had) came home for a bit from England and announced her engagement to her boyfriend over there.. and the thing is, I feel terrible for feeling this way.. so jealous of her because she actually gets to stay and live over there forever now and because she has finally met someone who loves her and who she loves, and I feel bad that I’m jealous cos no-one deserves it more then she does and I am happy for her at the same time.. it’s a bit nuts really…
People seem to forget how hard it can be to meet someone decent, and it seems every man our age that I meet lately is only interested in casual, which I am willing to do for a bit but after a while it gets old. My sisters both married their high school sweethearts, one of my best friends and her husband got together when we were at school.. yep… they’re 31 and have been together for 15 years.. so I am surrounded by people who have never ever been single as adults and it makes things hard because they try to get it, but they just don’t.
October 20th, 2009 at 02:50
My moment of honesty since we are on the topic of sex: I am only now really discovering who I am in terms of sexual identity. When I was younger, I experimented with both sexes and then as I got into my early 20’s, I started to identify as straight. Some of that was fear. Some of it was that I hadn’t met a woman in ages that I felt like I could relate to at that level. And most of it was shaming. So I pushed back the feelings and honestly believed for years that I didn’t miss it. When I found myself again single and events played out as they did, those old feelings resurfaced. Now here I am seriously wondering if my next relationship could be with a woman. It isn’t even about sex (though believe me this appeals to me!) but about that connection and over the last year I just feel less and less like I can relate to men the way I used to. And a lot of that is that I have finally developed a backbone and stopped letting them take away my power. Then I looked around and realized that most of the men in my life do that in small ways every single day. I’m about this close to becoming a card-carrying man hating lesbian. heh. Not really, no I love men and know that not all of them are like that and I still get tingly in my bits at a hot guy so the desire isn’t gone.
That was a long wordy way to say that I totally understand. Something happens to us along the way of turning 30 that really opens our eyes to who we are. It’s really nice to be here and to love myself enough to go after what makes me happy and dump the toxicity from my life. Whether it’s a man or a woman that gets my heart next, who knows but for sure, he/she will be good to me. I’ll never settle for less again.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:09
I think that I firmly believe that it is possible to fall in love with someone being straight or gay and not have it be within the ‘guidelines’.
Love is love. It sees no color or type of sex organ in the pants.
October 20th, 2009 at 03:45
Courtni… I think you hit the nail on the head so to speak and you just say shit everyone else is thinking and too damn embarrassed to say.
And that’s why people love ya…As for my moment of honesty- I instantly look at a man and I’m sure I know what size his dick is. LOL
My first celebrity crush (and still) is Will Smith. Insert drool here.. HAHAH But I’m with Kylie, and Patrick Swayze was up there as well.
Pity sex? Mmmmm no
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:11
Um you already know that I have a knack for that.
Mmmm Will Smith is a sexy, sexy man.
October 20th, 2009 at 04:09
On point!
My honest moment; my nick is killing me and I don’t know why.
Celebrity crush… I was well into my twenties before I started crushing on celebrities, so I honestly think it was Orlando Bloom… and Johnny Depp…And Gary Dourdan. Or maybe I’m just thinking about all the celebrities I crush right now…except I’ve rather leveled off on Gary Dourdan since his drug bust.
I’ve probably had pity sex; but never thought of it like that. Keith was my first and I married him; so I’m guessing it’s the times that I’m not really in the mood mentally but I know he is and I’d rather he were happy than grabby.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:12
I didn’t know that Gary had a recent drug bust ….
Off to Google.
October 20th, 2009 at 04:52
Would you like to share with me in a moment of honesty on this fine Tuesday? ummm, ummmmmm, I don’t mind honesty, just don’t know any good thing to share….lame, I know!! LOL
Who was your first celebrity crush? Scott Biao and then Duran Duran(yes ALL OF THEM)!
Have you ever had sex with someone out of pity? nope…not at all
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:13
LMFAO @ Duran Duran. HA HA. That is a first!
Cassie Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:21
can you tell me JUST WHY you find that funny??? lol
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:27
*snort*
October 20th, 2009 at 06:26
Hmmm…first celebrity crush must have been Phoebe Cates or maybe even Goldie Hawn… and I have not had sex with any girl in my life out of pity, although I am convinced that at least one had pity sex with me…hahaha! Oh well, I enjoyed the poke and I know they did too…I pity the fool! Hahaha!
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 09:13
LMAO!!!!!!!!
October 20th, 2009 at 09:58
Honestly, I love being a tease. Knowing that someone wants to fuck but doesn’t know whether or not he has a chance gets me insanely turned on.
Who was your first celebrity crush?
Mark Paul Gosselar aka Zach Morris
Have you ever had sex with someone out of pity?
No, but I did let a guy fondle my boobs so my friend could get hers.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 15:43
I knew you of all people would get it.
HAHA@ your crush.
October 20th, 2009 at 10:08
Honesty Moment: i feel pressured to refigure myself out.
First Celebrity Crush: Probably Linda Carter or Princess Leia.
Pity sex: Pity for myself maybe. Times it could have been pity sex, but I was more indifferent. Like I didn’t really feel desire to do them, but wanted them to be happy because they wanted to do me. Empathy would be a better word.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 15:45
Princess Leia. I <3 her.
Empathy sex … hmmmm.
October 20th, 2009 at 10:33
1. Share what with you? I do not understand the kestion™!
2. Does Lion-O from the ThunderCats count as a first celebrity crush? If not, then probably Jonathan Brandis. He was such a hottie.
3. Unfortunately, yes. I have. On more than one occasion. And no, I won’t do it again. Ever.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 16:28
1. Something you need to be honest about and haven’t.
2. um … sure?
3. You dont have to! You are a wifey!
Jaime Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 17:28
I honestly can’t think of anything at the moment.
October 20th, 2009 at 11:31
Honesty- I cannot live in the environment that my family is currently creating. It is toxic and I can’t leave yet sadly, but I’m taking small steps to get the hell out of here and it sort of make me feel like a horrible person but also makes me feel like I can breathe a little. I have explained the situation to several people all of whom tell me I need to do what’s right for me, basically implying that I need to get away from them. It’s depressing me actually, I thought these were supposed to be the people I could fall back on..
Crush- Umm I’m going to go with Will Smith
Pity sex- that would be a no..
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 22:07
Get. Out. Immediately. And don’t feel bad.
Dre Reply:
October 21st, 2009 at 03:57
As soon as humanly possible, scouts honor.
October 20th, 2009 at 14:56
Duran Duran was an early crush for me, but I think Richard Gere was my first, or near first. However, I did have very early sadist fantasies about Wilma and Betty. Call me crazy.
The only sort of pity sex I have had was when I went back a second time with a man that I had really wanted and the first time with him sucked. I gave him the benefit of the doubt and tried for a round two.
I also had sex with others merely because I could. When I was finally single in my early thirties, I decided to make up for lost time and see just how many people I might rendevous with between my 32nd and my 33rd birthday. It was playing with fire but I have little regrets today.
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 22:09
Uhhhhh…. Crazy? HAHA. I am kidding.
October 20th, 2009 at 15:16
Truth…I’m sleeping with a 19 year old boy and it is some of the best sex I have ever ever had.
My first celebrity crush…Nikki Sixx from Motley Crue when I was 6. It still carries on to this day.
Pity sex…yea, my ex husband right before I kicked him out of the house. Worst mistake ever, considering that we hadn’t fucked in almost 2 years
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 22:10
Ooooh.
Love me some Nikki.
October 20th, 2009 at 20:10
So wait, are you still part of 20 something bloggers? Just sayin.
ANDDDD I totally do that. Even though my body has changed and, ahem, plumped up a bit. Ok a lot, shut it. But even now I still do.
Would you like to share with me in a moment of honesty on this fine Tuesday? I miss sex
Who was your first celebrity crush? OMG, do you remember LA Law? My mom used to let me stay up late because I was sooo in love with Victor Sifurentes (Jimmy Smits) oh i loved him so much… now? not so much… eh I was young *shrug*
Have you ever had sex with someone out of pity? nope, but they might have out of pity for me… ayup that’s happened for sure lol
LivingWicked Reply:
October 20th, 2009 at 22:11
I haven’t logged in in so long.
You are a hot mama.
Then go get you some, woman!