Tired and Inspired.
Dec 4, 2008 Friendship, Random, Relationships, Sex, Thoughts and Perceptions
Have you ever experienced a moment in time that gave you the uplift that you so needed?
It is crazy how the universe works. I never once talked about this unexplainable need to connect. I am lying. I guess what I am meaning to say is that I never said the words: “I need my soul sisters to band together with me and change lives by unconditionally loving as many people as we possibly can.”
It is coming. I can feel the turbulence. Tonight it is buzzing gently across this country. Top to bottom, WE ARE. I am positive that if one of my sisters is laying in bed as I am typing this entry in my life… She is thinking and imagining and believing in what can be. What will be.
Are you confused yet? LMAO. 
That is okay. You will get it sooner than you think. I suggest you hop on board sooner than later. Be a part of it. Do not for a second deny the inevitable. Visit A Tribe Called Joy. Add us to your friends list. And sit back and watch the magic. The magic of a handful of amazing women with even more spectacular gifts band together to create something bigger than you or me or each other.
As this week rounds to an end, so does Fall Quarter. And, (fuckalready?) 2008. I am tired. I am conflicted. I am grateful and hopeful and wishful… and blessed. I am inspired. I am sitting with some guilt and shame. I need to go to an alanon meeting sooner than later. I need a hug from Tara. A big one. And my Tribe. Even the ones I have yet to share air with. I need Charli to give me a fucking break. I need Xavier to stop lying. I need to appreciate D more. I need to appreciate ME more.
You know what though? This place right here gives me an outlet to be me, and you all are so accepting of who I am. I am pretty sure that this blog or any blog that I ever could draft up could never say how happy I am to banter with all of you every single day.
Thank you. 
What are you stewing on as the week and the year comes to a close?
If you picked me for a Secret Santa event, and the limit to spend was $50 what would you get me?
What is one thing on your Christmas list… (even if you dont think you will ever get it in this lifetime.)
Have you ever had passionate sex under the Christmas Tree?
This last question is one that I am really asking for advice on: If someone told you something that you morally could not keep a secret, would you tell the appropriate person without letting them know you did, or would you confront that person and tell them that you were unable to keep their trust?
Tags: A Tribe Called Joy, christmas, end of year, grateful, inspiration, santa, Sex, soul sisters
December 5th, 2008 at 01:39
I am stewing on the fact that I have no work until after Christmas, I am also stewing on the fact that my life is nowhere near where I thought it would be at this stage of the game and that the only person I can blame for that fact is myself –
Secret Santa present for Courtni – that needs more thought, I may have to get back to you on that one… although, now that I think about it, over here $50 buys a really nice relaxing, pampering, away from everyone facial.. so I think I would probably get you a voucher for some pampering.
One thing on my Christmas list (which I don’t think will happen this year but maybe next) really good, down and dirty sex with a man who actually knows how to take care of a woman..
Not under the Christmas tree but in the armchair beside it yes…
and lastly… it would depend on I felt about both parties – but I would be more inclined to confront the one who had told me, tell them that I am really uncomfortable with knowing the secret and that I felt the other person should be told. I would let them know that my conscience would not allow me to keep their secret and I would give them first option of revealing it.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:38
I hate that uncomfortable feeling… I was there last year. Somehow though, it all works out.
Mmmm… pampering.
Keep wishing. It’ll happen.
the armchair was just as good I bet.
Thanks for answering.
Kylie Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 14:53
yeah … I keep telling myself to have faith that it will all work out.. I’m just having a moment where my head and heart keep saying to me fuck you’re about to turn 30 and you’ve got nothing to show for it … which rationally I know isn’t true, I have family and friends who love me and that’s a lot more then others have .. I know that… I just never thought I’d still be single and living alone by this age, and that somewhere along the way I would have lost (or maybe given up on) the dreams I had…
sorry… I am in a serious wallowing, woe is me faze at the moment
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 15:18
Hey. You do what you need to do to wallow and then get over it.
That is completely and totally normal and human.
December 5th, 2008 at 03:58
Only thing I’m stewing over is that it’s motherfucking cold here & I need a vacation to somewhere warm already.
Secret santa gift… Well I know you love scented lotions ( ok what girl doesn’t) but right away I thought I’d get just as much bath stuff & lotions $50 could buy or something equally pampering.
That one is tough. My gut reaction is that I would tell the person there is no way I can keep that secret & try to get them to own it on their own.
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:38
heh. where are you at?
mmmmmmmmm. you can never go wrong with smell goods.
April Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:46
I’m in freakin’ cold ass Misery…err… Missouri.
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:48
ewwwwwwwww what is it, like 3 degrees?
April Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:51
hah, no not quite that bad. Right now it’s about 35 but it’s the wind that rips right through ya. This morning, when I commented though, it was much lower. Probably not even 20. brrrrrrr.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:58
see! it could be worse!!
December 5th, 2008 at 05:42
YOU inspire me
One thing that I’m stewing over is how ready I am to just be done with this chapter in my life and move forward.
What do I want for Christmas? I want my own apartment and peace of mind…Not sure if I’ll get it in this lifetime
Annnnnnnnnnnnd…if I was going to get you a present for Christmas…it’d be Sephora goodness.
As for the advice…depending on what the issue was, I’d confront the person and let them know that this was something that wasn’t a secret that you could keep…and give them a chance to come clean themselves…letting them know I supported them to the end as long as they did the right thing. And then I would probably let the appropriate people know…but again, this is depending on what it is.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:21
Patience. I dont care if you have heard it a thousand times. Just. Be. Patient.
Mmmm I <3 Sephora.
December 5th, 2008 at 05:57
hey lady, sure wish I could have made it last night. unfortunately that’s when the kids decided to have a fight-fest and Chance had a meltdown. I almost did some serious damage to my working out/eating right by downing an entire bottle of Mudslides. I didn’t but damn if I didn’t want to!
I’m right where I am supposed to be as this year ends. I wish I were working, and making some money for presents to put under the tree. But I have accepted that if that is what God wanted for us this year, I’d have it going already. And since its not there must be a lesson here for us to learn, so I’m looking for it.
The only thing I’m stewing over is how people can do so much damage to someone they say they love. I had to deal with identity theft this week because my soon-to-be exhusband decided to order a bankcard off our joint account in MY name and give it to his live-in girlfriend. I was not only livid but dumbfounded that he would go that far to potentially hurt me, and the future I’m trying to build. It still astounds me how far people are willing to go without thought to anyone else or the consequences. oh well.
Secret Santa and 50 bux – I’d buy you a beautifully bound journal to keep all of your thoughts and inspirations in…the antique kind that wraps around itself and buckles closed. A piece of history for you to jot down your history in.
My Christmas List? for my ex-husband, the kid’s Dad, to want his family back together and to love us out loud. again – oh well..
I have had sex underneath the christmas tree…I dont know that it was passionate…definitely rushed so the kids wouldn’t find out….LOL
the last one…I’d probably tell that person there is no way I could keep their trust on that. If you feel the need to confide in someone, then let it be the person who needs to hear it. I would not want to have the weight of that responsibility on my shoulders nor own something that wasn’t mine.
love you lady! hope you are having a great friday =)
xoxo
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:36
Thanks for commenting.
I missed you last night. We shoulda had your input. But, there is more to come. No doubt about it.
That would be an amazing gift.
I can smell the leather.
I hope one day that wish comes true. Your kids deserve at least that. If nothing else.
December 5th, 2008 at 07:13
I’m pretty excited, if only because my cousin who I haven’t seen since February is visiting the week of New Years. So I get to give him and his girlfriend the Grand New York City Tour!
Ooh. . I would get you bath bombs from Lush.com They are so amazingly wonderous. Anything from Lush rocks.
The one thing on my Christmas List that I’m hoping for is a certain someone’s face in front of mine haha. We made a promise that we’d see each other before the year is up and that time is ticking away way too fast.
I would go back to the person and tell them I couldn’t keep their secret in hopes that they’d tell the person themselves. If they didn’t. . I guess depending on the situation I would tell the person myself and ask them not to mention that I told them. . Even if it would be obvious.
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:44
NICE!!!!
I wanna bath bomb. Immediately.
December 5th, 2008 at 07:21
I’m stewing on my brother and his recent choices. I don’t know how to help him anymore.
I would get you a day at the spa. There’s a place here where it would cover a hot stone massage, facial and mani/pedi. I know you need to pamper yourself.
I’m gonna go big and say a McMansion. I want a home that can house all my immediate family, but that’s big enough that we dont’ run into each other if we don’t want to.
Never have had sex by a Christmas tree. Closest I got was by the fireplace that had Christmas decorations on it and I wouldn’t call it passionate.
I’m torn on this one. If the secret was about some type of abuse or harm to a child, I would definelty not keep it a secret. If it was something else, I would confront the person who told me the secret so they would come out on their own.
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:39
care to indulge.
i <3 the spa.
with separate wings and shit.
rof. not even a little passion?
pecosa Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:19
I’ll email you the situation. I’ve actually been thinking about getting your advice on it.
Yes, separate wings. That would be freakin’ awesome.
The only passion came from the anger we both had at the moment.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:51
Yeah. I would love separate wings. LOVE.
December 5th, 2008 at 07:53
I’m sad that I wasn’t there last night. After reading the chat from the meeting I realized how unconnected with anyone I am, and it made me sad.
To answer your questions:
I have no idea.
A gift certificate to some sex toy shop!
The Samsung Rugby in burgundy for AT&T
And no to the passionate sex under the Christmas tree. LOL
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 10:46
dont be sad. there is more to come. know that.
hahahah… maybe one day under the tree?
Jaime Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 12:23
Probably not!
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December 5th, 2008 at 10:57
OK–my damn comment ain’t here no mo!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:45
Lemme see if it filtered it.
December 5th, 2008 at 11:49
As this year has been coming to a close, I have become more and more aware of exactly how long it has been since I (and more importantly my kids) have been around my family at the holidays. I may not share their religious beliefs anymore, but they are my famdamily dammit! The need is tangible to get out there, and soon. Going to attempt the planning of a summer trip.
If I picked you for a secret santa? oh wow. hmm. how about a ‘I am not mommy today’ Nametag along with the aforementioned pampered afternoon? sounds up your alley
Something for my christmas list? my mom. I know I’ve said it before. It’s still true.
as for the christmas tree? um no lol.not even remotely appealing. (i have a bad reaction to real trees lol. that would be BAD)
As for the advice.. I can’t keep secrets. and I tell people that up front. Everyone that would share a ’secret’ with me, knows I talk to my hubby about everything, i dont intentionally hide anything.. (anymore, spent way too long living a double life) i would tell them straight out that while i can understand their reasons for wanting it kept a secret.. i cannot do so because *insert here* and appropriate persons will need to be notified. the closer persons A and B are to me and intregal to my life, the harder it is… but there are SOME ’secrets’ that can NOT be allowed to stay secret.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 11:58
mmmm I am not a mommy today sounds amazing. I would give you the same.
Good to know. I wont tell you the secret I know about Cass then. Its a doosie.
Cassie Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 12:01
HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
WhyTheFlip you picking on me?
hahahahaha
Jody Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 12:02
ROFLMAO.that’s hilarious!
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 12:04
*snicker*
cause I can. PUSH THAT!
Cassie Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 12:59
I don’t think this site likes me anymore.
that’s the third comment of mine that has disappeared and now I’m sad!
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:51
WHAT?
Try hitting the back button on your browser next time.
Cassie Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:53
no–NOT about THIS comment……oh nevermind!
*pouts*
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December 5th, 2008 at 12:31
Stewing on the massive layoffs within my company. One of my favorite women, my mentor, my friend and my amazing boss was laid off today. *sigh* Stewing on men stuff, too.
Fifty bucks, I’d give you a spa certificate. or, I’d find some cool ass Monroe something-something for you. or, two bottles of wine and we’d just drink, laugh and hang together.
LOVE YOU
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:46
I need to hang together. Just you and me.
Love, Love, Love.
December 5th, 2008 at 13:39
What are you stewing on as the week and the year comes to a close?
That I have more on plate than I could possibly “eat”…
If you picked me for a Secret Santa event, and the limit to spend was $50 what would you get me?
A one way plane ticket to Austin, then I’d talk D into flying you home again if he ever wanted to see you again. =P
What is one thing on your Christmas list… (even if you dont think you will ever get it in this lifetime.)
A completely rebuilt engine for Dolly.
Have you ever had passionate sex under the Christmas Tree?
Nope. I have a thing for real trees, and those needles HURT.
If someone told you something that you morally could not keep a secret, would you tell the appropriate person without letting them know you did, or would you confront that person and tell them that you were unable to keep their trust?
Numero Dos. If I am going to break someone’s trust, I WILL tell them beforehand.
LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 13:47
Heh. I have never been to Austin.
And, there is always the option of a blanket to cover up the needles.
December 5th, 2008 at 14:31
I’m stewing on how I love a man’s work ethic, but I hate that I’m neglected and I love how he feels BAD that he’s neglecting me. AND how he’s holding out for me. ME. First Fresno, next SHITcago…and then FINALLY he will be coming to see me. Lots of cumming. My patience has been tested time and time again with this one, and I’m still winning.
Hummm…secret Santa gift for Courtni. I’d have to do a gift basket. Some chocolate, some bubble bath, some lotion, some body spray, a costco pack of AA’s and a new vibrating egg.
Something for me. FUCK. I never ask for anything for me. I told the sugar daddy potential that I wanted new sheets. (to which he said ‘thread count to the moon and back if I squirt for him’ dirty bastard) I want flannel. I got my first set two years ago and it was THE BEST gift I’ve ever gotten MYSELF.
I never have had passionate sex under the Christmas tree. I do, however, seem to enjoy starting and ending the year with a bang. Wonder if someone will be here this year LOL
I don’t know about that situation. It sounds tough. But you’re a tough cookie and I know you will do the right thing, no matter how hard or painful it is.
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LivingWicked Reply:
December 5th, 2008 at 15:07
Patience IS a virtue.
I need a vibrating egg so bad. .. …. . . . ..
December 5th, 2008 at 18:47
I’m only stewing about being stuck where I am right now. I’m working on it, but I’m over it.
$50 Secret Santa gift for you…my first thought was a nice bottle of balsamic vinegar.
For me, nothing too big, just a car so I can more easily attain my goals. Of course I could go huge, but why be greedy.
Sex under a Christmas Tree. LMFAO uummm, probably. I’m such a fucking ho I don’t remember!!!
And advice on your situation; it depends on what it is. If someone is being hurt, like a kid or something, that’s a secret you can’t keep, obviously. But if it’s something else maybe talk to the person about it first. Maybe there’s another side you haven’t considered, I have no idea. Just trust your gut, you know what’s right.
And about this egg…I am desperately in need of something new. Where do I get one?
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December 6th, 2008 at 07:12
1. I’m stewing on how I can only have $20.06 left in the bank and how I can make that stretch until Friday.
2. LOL well if I HAD $50 to spend…I’d probably spend it on a spa gift certificate so that you can get a nice massage.
3. Hmmm…I currently have winter car mats on my xmas list…how boring is that? The biggest thing I want is a house so I guess the best thing Santa could being me in his bag would be good credit. Which I probably will never achieve in my lifetime.
4. I’m allergic to my artificial tree so no.
5. It depends on the morality of the issue. Like if it’s someone just cheating on their partner then I’d probably leave it alone. But if it was like someone leaving their kids alone all day so they can cheat on their partner, it’s a different issue. If it’s the later I would confront them and if there was no change I would go to children’s aid. Children come first over friendship.
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December 6th, 2008 at 13:25
i added them…but i am a little confused… can’t wait to hear more… i miss you girlie! text me or IM me sometime when you have time to chat… hugs!
Cassi Reply:
December 6th, 2008 at 13:30
forgot to answer my questions:
-I am stewing on how I am going to find time for everything and how we are preparing to make a 1200 mile move again and how stressful that time is going to be… i am scared shitless on whether or not we will find a suitable home after we move and scared about everything that will be overwhelming … ugh
i know its lame but i have wanted a set of italian dinnerware for sooooo long 
will let you know if I am successful hehe
-i have to think about the gift thing… although i know for SURE what store i would go to… every time I pass this place in the mall I think of you and how I should go in and buy you something… i just have yet to do it.
-one thing on my christmas list is new kitchen dishes
-no, never had passionate sex under the christmas tree, but thinking of seeing if the hubby wants to take a gander today
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December 6th, 2008 at 13:31
sorry… last question…
i think your question would depend on the issue but i think more than likely i would tell the person that i felt deeply that i needed to tell their secret and that i couldn’t keep it and give them the option to tell first… but again it would depend on the issue…
xoxo
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