You Gotta Tip on the Tightrope

Some days, you just wake up with the intention of taking on the day, regardless of that weird dream you had which made you uneasy.

You turn up the music, push your boyfriend out the door and set out to conquer the day.

I’ll be honest.  It hasn’t been me lately but today?

Today is my day.

I am not sure which switch went off in me but I’m finally getting back to my normal self. The “Take No Prisoners, You Can Do Anything” self. The girl who jumps in and asks questions later. The girl who is ready to take the world by the balls.

I may not be at the top of my game lately. I get that. In fact, some people have chosen to identify my behavior as ‘rude’ because I was withdrawn and distanced myself from friends.

A good friend put it best: “It’s not personal, it’s just having to pick up all your pieces before trying to hold them together in front of other people.”

This is me. Finally having picked up some of my pieces enough to feel confident enough to show myself again.

I’ve been working since I was 16 and I’ve always been afraid of not having a job. After I moved out last year, my biggest fear was losing my job and having to move back to my parents’ house.

So when I lost my job, I freaked out but something in me was stirring.

With the help of my amazing boyfriend and the best support group a girl can ask for, I finally realized what it is I want.

I don’t want a full-time office job being someone’s assistant (Unless it’s PR/Communications and I am LEARNING.)

I’ve always wanted an internship but not being your usual college student, I never had the opportunity. To be honest, my parents just didn’t understand.

They still don’t but this is my life.

So I have a new career path. New goals. Renewed DRIVE.

It’s OK to start up small. It’s OK if I don’t have a full-time job as long as I can make ends meet and I am HAPPY.

I have a full-time job building a lifetime of memories.

I have a full-time job going after my dreams.

I have a full-time job kicking ass at everything I do.

The rest?

The rest always falls into place.

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So, AS I WAS WRITING THIS BLOG, I got a call from one of the internships I applied to this morning.  I can’t give the full details until I meet with her on Tuesday but I got a phone call from an amazing woman who has one of the coolest jobs ever! She told me that I am at the top of her list for internship and if we mesh well on Tuesday, I will be trained by her current interns during that day.

Hello FULL FREAK OUT MODE.

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